Venting My Endless Cycle of Sadness

[Misogynist Vegeta]

It's an endless cycle for me, I get opportunities to make my life just a little bit better and than it's ripped away from me, I finally get a job and than upper management changes and laid off as they start cutting off employees, I start talking to a girl online and than I show her my face and she ghosts me, I start making friends online and than they start to hate me, I get a new ebike that I enjoy riding and than a nigger steals it, I finally get an image out of my mind a new image takes it's place to torture me for the next week. It's always a little whitepill that gets destroyed by the blackpilled reality that I live in. Everything single time my life is like this and there is nothing I can do about it.

I'm walking through an endless tunnel, there is light at the end and everytime it's feels like i'm getting close to getting out the light become further away yet everytime it feels like this will be it, this will be my escape from it all but it never is. I'm demoralized, defeated and depressed not even getting angry at the existence of awful people can stop this sadness at the moment, I'm always praying for better days and I'm delivered with one or two only to receive 10 bad days.

I feel sick, I don't wanna get up in the moron anymore as I'm zapped of energy. I don't wanna try, I just wanna lay down and give up but I know that can't work either. I'll have gotten no where as LDAR does not comfort me, I am a broken shell of the man I was once but I can't stop and I can't end it. The fear of the nothingness that could await me after my life is over is too strong.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I'm demoralized, defeated and depressed

 

[cathuluelitist]

Ayahuasca is the light of the cave.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Incel life is just loss after loss

 

[Kent88]

a nigger steals it

 

[McFlurryCel]

I lovE to remain sad. It gives me more dopamine

 

[Steiner_Atlas]

"But of course!" The Normgroid proclaims, adorning a twisted mask - perfectly fitting onto its 'face' as a perverted act of mockery. "Just shower!"

 

[hierophant]

It's an endless cycle for me, I get opportunities to make my life just a little bit better and than it's ripped away from me, I finally get a job and than upper management changes and laid off as they start cutting off employees, I start talking to a girl online and than I show her my face and she ghosts me, I start making friends online and than they start to hate me, I get a new ebike that I enjoy riding and than a nigger steals it, I finally get an image out of my mind a new image takes it's place to torture me for the next week. It's always a little whitepill that gets destroyed by the blackpilled reality that I live in. Everything single time my life is like this and there is nothing I can do about it.

I'm walking through an endless tunnel, there is light at the end and everytime it's feels like i'm getting close to getting out the light become further away yet everytime it feels like this will be it, this will be my escape from it all but it never is. I'm demoralized, defeated and depressed not even getting angry at the existence of awful people can stop this sadness at the moment, I'm always praying for better days and I'm delivered with one or two only to receive 10 bad days.

I feel sick, I don't wanna get up in the moron anymore as I'm zapped of energy. I don't wanna try, I just wanna lay down and give up but I know that can't work either. I'll have gotten no where as LDAR does not comfort me, I am a broken shell of the man I was once but I can't stop and I can't end it. The fear of the nothingness that could await me after my life is over is too strong.

Not to detract from your misery, but I will be frank on my own behalf. I've come to learn that it is true that in our current state we live in constant anxiety, worry and woe; what we have we fear it being taken away, when we purchase something it is used and we try to find a way to get it back.

Life is such, that the Earth is bound in principle, she does not decide what happens without, whether a comet arrive or if the sun is to hot or cold, she has only control of what goes on internally; the shifting of the plates, the increasing cold, the burning hot- all this is within her control and grasp.

Man is the only creature who's rules and regulations seek to steal from him a happy life, nature has not been unfair, man is and it is when we grasp the internal logic which we posses within us, by then understand the psychology from within and out do we grasp the reality of man. We are interdependent upon one another, but that we are born capable of being independent for ourselves. We cocreate reality together, this is the fundamental design of our being, it is when the force of the masses is directed towards destructive ends do we become hurt by them.

Our behavior effects our surroundings, our thoughts effect the inner world of our being; we can account for our thoughts and where our behavior will be directed towards. Sorrow is not a thing in its self, it is the result of all that we have endured and our body and mind push us to recognize such misery.

 

[hierophant]

It's an endless cycle for me, I get opportunities to make my life just a little bit better and than it's ripped away from me, I finally get a job and than upper management changes and laid off as they start cutting off employees, I start talking to a girl online and than I show her my face and she ghosts me, I start making friends online and than they start to hate me, I get a new ebike that I enjoy riding and than a nigger steals it, I finally get an image out of my mind a new image takes it's place to torture me for the next week. It's always a little whitepill that gets destroyed by the blackpilled reality that I live in. Everything single time my life is like this and there is nothing I can do about it.

I'm walking through an endless tunnel, there is light at the end and everytime it's feels like i'm getting close to getting out the light become further away yet everytime it feels like this will be it, this will be my escape from it all but it never is. I'm demoralized, defeated and depressed not even getting angry at the existence of awful people can stop this sadness at the moment, I'm always praying for better days and I'm delivered with one or two only to receive 10 bad days.

I feel sick, I don't wanna get up in the moron anymore as I'm zapped of energy. I don't wanna try, I just wanna lay down and give up but I know that can't work either. I'll have gotten no where as LDAR does not comfort me, I am a broken shell of the man I was once but I can't stop and I can't end it. The fear of the nothingness that could await me after my life is over is too strong.

It was taught this and so now I give it to you. Life has four seasons: winter, summer, spring and fall; the son of man has such a seasons which occur in his life and are in respect to his context. Learn the seasons of the Earth, so that when you can see and predict when the flowers fall and when the heat grows you know what comes. When you learn the seasons of man, study your mind, for you are not separate from him anymore then he is you; study the mind and seasons of being and when you have grasped the predictability and principles of the sons of man you will know what to evade and what to keep.

 

[ihatelife2]

I'm really sorry man...