KetamineAddictYoda
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So after my previous posts debating whether I should do it, I did it a couple days ago. Yes, maybe the price was too high, but she is a top tier escort meant for businessmen making crazy amounts of money and I'm never escorting again. A week of wageslaving and I have the money back so idc.
It was neither glorified masturbation nor the cure to inceldom and I was far too nervous to thoroughly enjoy it. Despite that, it was a great (albeit awkward) time both during and after sex. The beginning was a totally surreal experience; I couldn't believe I was finally having sex. It was just like the hundreds of pornos I had jacked off too. She was very casual and kind, taking the lead on almost everything since I was an anxious wreck of a virgin. After about 20 minutes we cuddled and discussed a variety of weird topics and our backgrounds for the rest of the hour. There were some genuine moments of laughter and connection, especially since we are of similar age and I'm not her usual clientele of fat, old rich guys who cheat on their wife.
In conclusion, sex without romantic love remains quite meaningless to me and I now feel quite guilty and embarrassed for what I have done, but at least I can die knowing what sex feels like.
It was neither glorified masturbation nor the cure to inceldom and I was far too nervous to thoroughly enjoy it. Despite that, it was a great (albeit awkward) time both during and after sex. The beginning was a totally surreal experience; I couldn't believe I was finally having sex. It was just like the hundreds of pornos I had jacked off too. She was very casual and kind, taking the lead on almost everything since I was an anxious wreck of a virgin. After about 20 minutes we cuddled and discussed a variety of weird topics and our backgrounds for the rest of the hour. There were some genuine moments of laughter and connection, especially since we are of similar age and I'm not her usual clientele of fat, old rich guys who cheat on their wife.
In conclusion, sex without romantic love remains quite meaningless to me and I now feel quite guilty and embarrassed for what I have done, but at least I can die knowing what sex feels like.