Lonely :(

[HappyDaysOrBad]

Just got kicked out of a group chat, and I wonder if I did anything wrong. I do my best not to offend not to cause any dissaray. I think it's because they thought I was attracted to them.

Tell me guys, do you guys feel like this? I don't hate people I just hate myself I stopped trying years ago, especially with fake people acting like they prioritize having friends when they're just trying to make an echo chamber.

Perhaps it is the destruction of self that gives new realizations to why people dislike me. But perhaps that will arrive when my death finally comes and allows me to weep in its soft jagged shoulder. Does God desire my death? And if so what will come after this fate? The destruction if me. I hope this is all just ramblings, that these words to not forecast my future life. But I see my path being darkened and my path is lonesome.

 

[Ghostface]

you should write a book of poetry instead of browsing inkwells.is, normie.

 

[TheSwagapino]

 

[psyop]

I wonder if I did anything wrong

I used to beat myself up over this everytime things went left for me, but then I realised this life is rigged against me from day one. No amount of personality will make up for my face, so I stopped trying so hard and gave up

 

[HappyDaysOrBad]

I used to beat myself up over this everytime things went left for me, but then I realised this life is rigged against me from day one. No amount of personality will make up for my face, so I stopped trying so hard and gave up

Yeah I think they only kept me around to laugh at me, I mean I probably the only reason. And thank you happy to know I'm not alone.

 

[HappyDaysOrBad]

you should write a book of poetry instead of browsing inkwells.is, normie.

Yeah sorry that's how I cope with someone just ending something with me, it doesn't help much but I really want to be a writer one day so it atleast keeps me from "an hero"ing myself. And sorry for coming off like some soyfilled larper

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Yes. When I was a young child, I'd get into arguments with my half-cousins due to their "favoritism". I once criticized my half-cousin after we visited my half-uncle's apartment in downtown Milwaukee. Her mother said this:

"Hey, Intellau!, Well, you know what? You can leave!"

I was licking a battery as she said it.

JFL...Mother asked me to pander to my intellectually-disabled younger half-cousin...His dyslexic Mother is too incompetent to teach him basic knowledge.

They were openly denigrating myself and Mother whenever I'd visit. It was never voluntary.

"Intellau's mother is a leech"

"Intellau's mother is a cow"

"Intellau's mother sits around all day doing nothing" (Except for the cooking, cleaning, spending time with her mother, buying things for her mother...)

"I'll go inside" (Intellau decided to go fetch his mother since he realized how selfish and impatient his half-relatives were)

"Intellau's mother is always sick. Maybe she should stop visiting restaurants"

Half-relatives were driven to Chicago to visit their maternal relatives. Mother took them to a theatre once. Local restaurants several times with their grandmother's money as well as Mother's. Grocery store trips. Mall trips. Their mother was given shelf/television set/bed set. Some sort of zoo ticket plan. Mother split money for groceries with them.

Played Goldfish with them, gave them painting materials, marbles, et cetera...

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View: https://youtu.be/NC2Q44ZKgV4?t=20

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Re: I have 2 tests tomorrow

UnsourcedAnon Join Date: 2016-01-12 Post Count: 563

#181702428Friday, January 15, 2016 2:05 AM CST Why are you here then?"It doesn't matter, our existence is useless anyway"That is merely because you have not constructed a goal that "validates" your existence.

Yeah sorry that's how I cope with someone just ending something with me, it doesn't help much but I really want to be a writer one day so it atleast keeps me from "an hero"ing myself. And sorry for coming off like some soyfilled larper