curryboy420
Overlord
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Its a little funny and curious to me, they seem to think I've made it or something, since I sit in an old bmw just like ER and I smoke all day long and watch YouTube. The car is my comfy place so I prefer it to my overcrowded shit moldy house.
I dont know why they want to interact with me but they occasionally ask for a cigarette or do things that seem to be to attract my attention. I wish I could explain to these kids (15-16yrs) that if they end up like me they will be considering the rope daily and it becomes a blurry monotony of days which all seem meaningless and hopeless because there are no more major milestones just getting older and health deteriorating.
It also makes me realise how much my brain has rotted, this 15 year old kid was way faster and articulate than me in the conversation we had, and he knew the slang and had confidence to say what he wanted. Meanwhile I was scared of saying things that make me look even more retarded, which in turn makes me look empty headed anyway.
If I had a better brain and I was worthy of respect as a leader than I might have tried to make money using these guys, make them work for me in some way and lead us all to wealth and escape from this ghetto shithole but I dont have the skills or knowledge and these guys are far more neurotypical than me so they'll probably figure out making legal money in a few years like everyone else did except my family.
Don't know why I shared this but I have nobody else to tell so if you have any thoughts lemme know and if not then don't worry because this is just the ramblings of a crazy person.
I dont know why they want to interact with me but they occasionally ask for a cigarette or do things that seem to be to attract my attention. I wish I could explain to these kids (15-16yrs) that if they end up like me they will be considering the rope daily and it becomes a blurry monotony of days which all seem meaningless and hopeless because there are no more major milestones just getting older and health deteriorating.
It also makes me realise how much my brain has rotted, this 15 year old kid was way faster and articulate than me in the conversation we had, and he knew the slang and had confidence to say what he wanted. Meanwhile I was scared of saying things that make me look even more retarded, which in turn makes me look empty headed anyway.
If I had a better brain and I was worthy of respect as a leader than I might have tried to make money using these guys, make them work for me in some way and lead us all to wealth and escape from this ghetto shithole but I dont have the skills or knowledge and these guys are far more neurotypical than me so they'll probably figure out making legal money in a few years like everyone else did except my family.
Don't know why I shared this but I have nobody else to tell so if you have any thoughts lemme know and if not then don't worry because this is just the ramblings of a crazy person.