Betrayed
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When I was born people thought I would be retarded. I didn't speak a single word until I was 3 years old.
All of a sudden I could speak fluently in 2 languages, teached myself how to read and write (with 3 years old).
I had about 3 history books in my room, I memorized them all and knew a lot of events. I was (and still am) absolutely fascinated with history. At that point I memorized all countries on earth and their capitals.
In kindergarden I struggled to talk to people because everything other people said was just so uninteresting. I had two friends who I shared the same hobbies of building train tracks with.
I remember kindergarden as an amazing time. We both had habits of shaking our hands in weird ways and jumping around the room while building the tracks. It was a separate room from the main room.
The teachers in kindergarden would sometimes ask me and my mother what was wrong with me and why I'm like that. She said that's just how I am. I said I didn't know. I did notice I am different to other kids but I always deemed others uninteresting.
I was quite popular in kindergarden so to say, people liked me a lot because they called me "smart" and "helpful". I would always read what today's lunch was gonna be (it was written on a paper for the teachers) and when someone would go on vacation he/she would ask me where they went and what the capital of said country is etc. And I would tell them. Everybody loved me. The teachers were surprised by my abilities and praised me.
My biggest fear was loud noises. Other kids loved festivals and carnivals with rollercoasters etc. But I was always afraid of the loud music at these events.
I also had a Windows XP PC that a friend of my mom gave me, which functioned for a few years still. Had no internet but could play 2000s game on. I always turned down the volume on the speakers to 0 when starting up/shutting down the PC because I was afraid of the startup/shutdown sounds (I would get days of nightmares from listening to those)
In elementary people didnt praise me anymore but I was a reliable source of information. The teacher there loved me and sometimes I would help her correct homework and exams from the class. All my classmates begged me for extra points (would give a few). I had 2 friends I would regularly meet up with and we had a lot of fun. I went to a psychologist after a teacher recommended me to make an IQ test (got a very high IQ in the test). The psychologist said I should skip a grade but the teacher didn't want me to, as most students hated her and werent as smart as me but I would help her with correcting exams etc.
In secondary school (middle+high school) people all already knew each other from other nearby elementaries but I was the only male kid from my former class. They all already had friend groups and that's the first time when I just "didn't fit in". People said I was weird and what was wrong with me. I was ignored full time by girls and none of the boys wanted to talk to me really, except one fat guy who made fun of everyone and was my fake friend.
I don't feel like making this story longer because it only goes downhill but I suffered a lot in this school. I feel like I'm not made for this world. Everybody is different and it's so excuriating. I wish I could go back to kindergarden
Every time an ambulance or a train is driving by close to me I have to cover my ears and get panic while other people don't seem to mind.
All of a sudden I could speak fluently in 2 languages, teached myself how to read and write (with 3 years old).
I had about 3 history books in my room, I memorized them all and knew a lot of events. I was (and still am) absolutely fascinated with history. At that point I memorized all countries on earth and their capitals.
In kindergarden I struggled to talk to people because everything other people said was just so uninteresting. I had two friends who I shared the same hobbies of building train tracks with.
I remember kindergarden as an amazing time. We both had habits of shaking our hands in weird ways and jumping around the room while building the tracks. It was a separate room from the main room.
The teachers in kindergarden would sometimes ask me and my mother what was wrong with me and why I'm like that. She said that's just how I am. I said I didn't know. I did notice I am different to other kids but I always deemed others uninteresting.
I was quite popular in kindergarden so to say, people liked me a lot because they called me "smart" and "helpful". I would always read what today's lunch was gonna be (it was written on a paper for the teachers) and when someone would go on vacation he/she would ask me where they went and what the capital of said country is etc. And I would tell them. Everybody loved me. The teachers were surprised by my abilities and praised me.
My biggest fear was loud noises. Other kids loved festivals and carnivals with rollercoasters etc. But I was always afraid of the loud music at these events.
I also had a Windows XP PC that a friend of my mom gave me, which functioned for a few years still. Had no internet but could play 2000s game on. I always turned down the volume on the speakers to 0 when starting up/shutting down the PC because I was afraid of the startup/shutdown sounds (I would get days of nightmares from listening to those)
In elementary people didnt praise me anymore but I was a reliable source of information. The teacher there loved me and sometimes I would help her correct homework and exams from the class. All my classmates begged me for extra points (would give a few). I had 2 friends I would regularly meet up with and we had a lot of fun. I went to a psychologist after a teacher recommended me to make an IQ test (got a very high IQ in the test). The psychologist said I should skip a grade but the teacher didn't want me to, as most students hated her and werent as smart as me but I would help her with correcting exams etc.
In secondary school (middle+high school) people all already knew each other from other nearby elementaries but I was the only male kid from my former class. They all already had friend groups and that's the first time when I just "didn't fit in". People said I was weird and what was wrong with me. I was ignored full time by girls and none of the boys wanted to talk to me really, except one fat guy who made fun of everyone and was my fake friend.
I don't feel like making this story longer because it only goes downhill but I suffered a lot in this school. I feel like I'm not made for this world. Everybody is different and it's so excuriating. I wish I could go back to kindergarden
Every time an ambulance or a train is driving by close to me I have to cover my ears and get panic while other people don't seem to mind.
