Life or god or the universe whoever my creators are never gave me any purpose is life nor any potential to achieve these inexistent causes.
I'm physically weak and I cannot gain strength despite trying because of eating disorders, getting rich is impossible especially with my mental conditions, I'm socially inept, I can't keep a convo nor do I have any talent or useful skill. I can't make myself interesting enough for anyone to value me on long term. All friendly relationships I had were short term and were mostly made through video games, we either ended up ghosting each other or I was only kept aside for casual laugh due to my sense of humor.
All I do is cope in my room playing video games and watching cosmos videos. I have nothing going on in my life, I haven't talked to someone else than my family for weeks, I'm more socially disconnected than ever.
Life gave me nothing, I have no purpose, no mission, no story, my person will have had a minor to null impact on this world, I'll have brought nothing to it. It's painful to wake up every morning getting no sign or response at all when wondering why you even exist. Experiencing your life in 3rd person, a single spectator, this kind of life would be more optimized if I just didn't have a body, I live the same life as a ghost but worse. Imagine being sent to earth to be such a wreck...
I'm physically weak and I cannot gain strength despite trying because of eating disorders, getting rich is impossible especially with my mental conditions, I'm socially inept, I can't keep a convo nor do I have any talent or useful skill. I can't make myself interesting enough for anyone to value me on long term. All friendly relationships I had were short term and were mostly made through video games, we either ended up ghosting each other or I was only kept aside for casual laugh due to my sense of humor.
All I do is cope in my room playing video games and watching cosmos videos. I have nothing going on in my life, I haven't talked to someone else than my family for weeks, I'm more socially disconnected than ever.
Life gave me nothing, I have no purpose, no mission, no story, my person will have had a minor to null impact on this world, I'll have brought nothing to it. It's painful to wake up every morning getting no sign or response at all when wondering why you even exist. Experiencing your life in 3rd person, a single spectator, this kind of life would be more optimized if I just didn't have a body, I live the same life as a ghost but worse. Imagine being sent to earth to be such a wreck...
