Brutal I knew nothing would change in/after college

[Giracel]

Sitting alone far past midnight realizing I was right about college. It changed nothing, I'm back at my parents house as a zero independence loser despondent over my online chess rating just like in high school. It's like college never even happened. I made no friends or interesting memories to look back on.

The reason something as frivolous as internet points brings me down so hard is because I have basically nothing going on. The mental value that would be put on normal things like social life and/or a girlfriend, is implanted onto things like this. So when even these things fall, I fall with them.

 

[Giracel]

When you are a mixed mutt and ND / OCD, foids look the other way. Even still there was a greater chance of finding a girlfriend at college. In my house, that chance is precisely zero.

 

[yakusai]

despondent over my online chess rating

What's your elo?

 

[kapri]

Literally same here, except I play League of Legends

 

[Giracel]

What's your elo?

1800, it was way higher

 

[Giracel]

Literally same here, except I play League of Legends

I hate that game because my younger brother's e-GF plays that. That has been a major thorn in my side in this summer. The proverbial Discord gamer femcel, he actually got this. It is almost too absurd to be true.

 

[yakusai]

1800, it was way higher

chess mogs me

 

[Giracel]

chess mogs me

Enough people have accused me of being a time-player that I have to accept there's truth to it. I have no long-term strategy, just grab random pawns while playing defense. I can't attack for shit

 

[kapri]

I hate that game because my younger brother's e-GF plays that. That has been a major thorn in my side in this summer. The proverbial Discord gamer femcel, he actually got this. It is almost too absurd to be true.

He must be shit at the game. There are no women in my elo (low masta)

 

[Giracel]

He must be shit at the game. There are no women in my elo (low masta)

He didn't even meet her in that game. Again it all makes no sense. But that foid is shit at it, he tells me she loses all her games lmao.