Just a glimpse of normal life can damage me

[Smallus Dickus]

This gonna be short, as I don't like writing long threads. Yesterday in work on let's say lunch break one female decided to talk with me. IN BEFORE "CHAD GO AWAY" I'm 4/10 and a good talker, so people generally like to talk with me, especially when they can't talk with anyone else. Anyway, this woman is few years older than me, probably 33-34, 6-6.5 in looks but just my type so for me she is 10/10. She noticed that I read book(it was lovecraft), so she asked me about it. And then she asked me if I like video games. I was like sure, and then we started talking about them. Apparently she likes to play all sorts of games, hardcore RPG-s and action games like Need For Speed or Far Cry. We laughed a little bit about blizzard and their new idea on Diablo on cellphones.

Anyway, after that sadness hit me up. I wish I was her husband. She is pretty, nice, and have wide variety of hobbies. Last months I deluded myself with mgtow stuff (what choice do I really have as acne,bald,old,chronicpaincel?) that women are unnessesary in life, but those 15 minutes talking with her was really a highlight of my week/month/year. I wish I could cuddle with her and talk about different things, planning our future.

But I have no future. I'm nearly 30, I don't know if I should live pass it or rope on my birthday? My mom is still alive so I don't want to break her heart but what is the point of this

 

[Deleted member 60]

This gonna be short, as I don't like writing long threads.

 

[Remyx]

Nigga this post ended up being longer than your username

 

[REkrul]

Nigga this post ended up being longer than your username

Autism. Wasn't even that long.
There's no solution, ngl tbh. Everyone wants that. It's fucked.

 

[Deleted member 15737]

Nofap now

 

[ldargoblin]

I don't know man
Their jedi tricks don't work on me anymore

Need For Speed or Far Cry

 

[Angry_runt]

She was sent by the femoid central command to rekindle your hopes so you can be made to hurt again.

Also gtfo Chad reee, I'm 36 and I've never had a girl just start talking to me... unless it was at school and she was telling me what a retard I am.

 

[Smallus Dickus]

Nofap now

How can it helps me? I tried it, but after some days/weeks it's like pure torture. Unless after fap I feel better for a while and can concentrate on work etc.

 

[Clock Tower]

being a 4/10 and a good talker is what i'm aspiring to be daily. i don't think your situation is extremely bad or irredeemable.

i don't want to give generic advice but just talk to her a little more. don't tell your feelings right away or try to pull some pua bullshit. see if she likes you. if not, move on.

i can't tell you to not kill yourself, thats ur choice. but i wouldnt if i were you. 4/10 and a good talker? that would be a dream for me. it might be a little insufficient in dating, but it sure isn't in having a satisfactory life.

what book from lovecraft were you reading?

 

[Smallus Dickus]

being a 4/10 and a good talker is what i'm aspiring to be daily. i don't think your situation is extremely bad or irredeemable.

i don't want to give generic advice but just talk to her a little more. don't tell your feelings right away or try to pull some pua bullshit. see if she likes you. if not, move on.

i can't tell you to not kill yourself, thats ur choice. but i wouldnt if i were you. 4/10 and a good talker? that would be a dream for me. it might be a little insufficient in dating, but it sure isn't in having a satisfactory life.

what book from lovecraft were you reading?

I maybe didn't express myself clearly. She is married. That's what I meant when I said I wish I was her husband, I envy him so much. Not only she is good looking, she is nice and interesting.
I'm okay when it comes to socializing, talking as pals/friends etc, and in work too. But I never, ever possesed any skills when it comes to talking to girls/woman romantically. I had some dates when I was young, and almost always they ended on first one. Maybe it's because I had severe acne, or maybe I just completely sucks at that.

And book I was reading was lovecraft's collection of short stories. Quite good, although I feel that after translation to my language it lost much of it appeal, I think I'm gonna read his stories in english from now on.

 

[SchrodingersDick]

I feel u on the roping at 30 thing.. I’m 25 and I can’t imagine myself 30+.. I keep thinking about it.. being 30 and still not having relationships and experiences terrifies me. Truly don’t know if I’ll make it.

 

[Smallus Dickus]

I feel u on the roping at 30 thing.. I’m 25 and I can’t imagine myself 30+.. I keep thinking about it.. being 30 and still not having relationships and experiences terrifies me. Truly don’t know if I’ll make it.

I feel that 25 is pretty much end of youth. Many users here are 18-20, unless they are trully autistic/ugly to the maxx is still hope for them. And if not, they can cope with clear mind. I wasn't really worried about all that when I was 22 for example, almost nobody I knew was married, pals had time for me etc. Now at 29 it's just work and work, everybody else is married and people are surprised when I inform them I'm alone.
I blame my parents, they always told me "concentrate on your study and work, you will meet a good girl, it's gonna just happen". I had chance when I was younger, I quess I blew it up. That's why I don't know if I should live longer. I don't feel regret anymore, it happened, I lost. But it's like some online game, okay you lost it happens -> but why you are still on server? Nothing will chance, if you lose you lose.

On the other hand there is neighbor dude who is ~5 years older than me. Meet a woman in bigger city, had a son. But she divorced him, he needs to pay for child support and almost never see his son, and had to move in to his parents again. I wonder how he can live?

 

[ChronicPaincel]

There can only be one chronicpaincel

 

[Smallus Dickus]

There can only be one chronicpaincel

No prob mang, I can give mine pain to you Crohn + trigeminal neuralgia, FUN STUFF