This started sometime later in high school, my family stopped buying me new games, consoles, and this continued early into university/college. I did play many games when I was a child to my late teens.
During that time I tried looking for work in retail and fast food (this was before covid), and no one wanted to hire me, so I couldn't buy or save up games and consoles.
A lot of it just went to paying university/college (when I finally got a job mid-way in my college/university years) and I'd feel embarrassed playing games in front of my parents.
This led me to just focusing on the PC, I didn't like it as much, and I still got shamed for it.
This also led me to missing playing or trying other games. I basically only played with the ps1, n64 (very rarely), ps2, pc (sometimes I'd play emulators on it), and then skipped all the way to the ps5. I didn't get to play around with the ps3 and ps4 (although I played some ps4 games on the ps5). Even my pc wasn't good enough to play ps3 games on it, during those times.
I carry some resentment because of this. Life has already stolen me a gf or wife, but stealing the games I can't play or the time I could've spent on them? Stolen too.
I also now feel like I don't want to play games from like the 2010s because it'd remind me of those times when I couldn't play it, and it also makes me feel like I'm older or too old. I only look to play newer games, I'm becoming picky of this. I only want to play games past 2024 (or unless if they're like a remaster or improve upon more of the graphics like FF7Remake). I want to totaly immerse myself in new experience (and novelty) because of that chunk of my past that went missing. New games only.
During that time I tried looking for work in retail and fast food (this was before covid), and no one wanted to hire me, so I couldn't buy or save up games and consoles.
A lot of it just went to paying university/college (when I finally got a job mid-way in my college/university years) and I'd feel embarrassed playing games in front of my parents.
This led me to just focusing on the PC, I didn't like it as much, and I still got shamed for it.
This also led me to missing playing or trying other games. I basically only played with the ps1, n64 (very rarely), ps2, pc (sometimes I'd play emulators on it), and then skipped all the way to the ps5. I didn't get to play around with the ps3 and ps4 (although I played some ps4 games on the ps5). Even my pc wasn't good enough to play ps3 games on it, during those times.
I carry some resentment because of this. Life has already stolen me a gf or wife, but stealing the games I can't play or the time I could've spent on them? Stolen too.
I also now feel like I don't want to play games from like the 2010s because it'd remind me of those times when I couldn't play it, and it also makes me feel like I'm older or too old. I only look to play newer games, I'm becoming picky of this. I only want to play games past 2024 (or unless if they're like a remaster or improve upon more of the graphics like FF7Remake). I want to totaly immerse myself in new experience (and novelty) because of that chunk of my past that went missing. New games only.
