I dont know if anyone is familiar with my username but If you know me and you've been reading what I post from the last months and compare it to my older posts, you'll quickly notice the difference. Newer comments are more filled with hope and leaning on the redpilled self-improvement for the sake of one's own sanity. That idea of going upward so you can bare the suffering of existence
After years of suffering from depression because of the blackpill. I thought Im already in the 5th stage of grief, Acceptance. I am happy to realize that I am already able to take the whitepill. Like Nietzsche's Amor Fati. Loving my own fate and accepting the harsh reality so I can aim on other aspect of life.
I thought If I overdose myself with the blackpill, someday I would be able to completely accept my situation and can continue my life without thinking about it but now Im afraid that I was wrong.
Maybe I should've listened to those red-pilled advice sooner like finding a hobby or concentrate on yourself because the longer and the deeper I take the blackpill, the harder for me to get over my situation I thought im gonna get eventually used to it but I was wrong. I wont be able to get used to it no matter how long it is. I can only use copes like hobby, escorts and such so I can momentarily forget about it. Maybe If i spent more time watching self-improvements copes from the youtube I could've stop these flashbacks of my oneitis disgusted face while looking at me or thinking what's on her mind when I tried to add her on facebook. Did she just click decline? Did she tell it to her boyfriend or friends? Did she laugh about it or just creeped out to the fact that I tried to add her?
Just a while ago I searched "how not to be creepy" in youtube and I realize how pitiful I am. The fact that I would become a creep and most likely a laughing stock to other people didn't come to my mind as a child. Maybe If I was taller with better face, better frame and better voice. I would be able to socialize more and the outcome would be different.
PS: Having Oneitis doesnt mean you are a cuck, Its normal for a person to get attracted to the opposite gender especially if you think you have a lot in common.
Just because you take the blackpill doesnt mean you become asexual
After years of suffering from depression because of the blackpill. I thought Im already in the 5th stage of grief, Acceptance. I am happy to realize that I am already able to take the whitepill. Like Nietzsche's Amor Fati. Loving my own fate and accepting the harsh reality so I can aim on other aspect of life.
I thought If I overdose myself with the blackpill, someday I would be able to completely accept my situation and can continue my life without thinking about it but now Im afraid that I was wrong.
Maybe I should've listened to those red-pilled advice sooner like finding a hobby or concentrate on yourself because the longer and the deeper I take the blackpill, the harder for me to get over my situation I thought im gonna get eventually used to it but I was wrong. I wont be able to get used to it no matter how long it is. I can only use copes like hobby, escorts and such so I can momentarily forget about it. Maybe If i spent more time watching self-improvements copes from the youtube I could've stop these flashbacks of my oneitis disgusted face while looking at me or thinking what's on her mind when I tried to add her on facebook. Did she just click decline? Did she tell it to her boyfriend or friends? Did she laugh about it or just creeped out to the fact that I tried to add her?
Just a while ago I searched "how not to be creepy" in youtube and I realize how pitiful I am. The fact that I would become a creep and most likely a laughing stock to other people didn't come to my mind as a child. Maybe If I was taller with better face, better frame and better voice. I would be able to socialize more and the outcome would be different.
PS: Having Oneitis doesnt mean you are a cuck, Its normal for a person to get attracted to the opposite gender especially if you think you have a lot in common.
Just because you take the blackpill doesnt mean you become asexual
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