Blackpill I've been crying on the floor

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

This is it for me brocels. After tonight I'm gonna be gone forever.

I drank too much and started crying on the floor. I huddled up on the ground and started sobbing.

Thinking about all of my life up to this point. All of the love I wish I could give. I'm gonna hurt so many people I love, but I can't stay here any longer. There's nothing left for me here.

I can't measure up to anyone's expectations. I just don't think I have anything left of me. I've given this considerable thought, and I just can't do this anymore.

Either I rope tomorrow or I stay stuck here feeling this way forever. I have cried too much, almost every day.

I just feel so sad. I can't ever change anything. I just saw the truth and now I am stuck here until I leave this place for good.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I am hurting so bad brocels.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

 

[bruhwtf]

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

My parents are going out of town tomorrow. It's gonna be my only chance to rope.

 

[svgmn1]

I hope things get better for you, if not atleast I hope you gain the freedom you long for boyo

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I hope things get better for you, if not atleast I hope you gain the freedom you long for boyo

Thanks brocel. I am hurting so bad. Tears are streaming down my face.

 

[BurntIvoryKingcel]

cya tomorrow

 

[svgmn1]

cya tomorrow

that's ok let him vent
I'd rather see him here tomorrow.

 

[adharmi]

How old are you

 

[svgmn1]

Thanks brocel. I am hurting so bad. Tears are streaming down my face.

stop thinking at all and get a good day's sleep
next day, week or month this state will be over or you'll just accommodate with it.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

How old are you

23

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

stop thinking at all and get a good day's sleep
next day, week or month this state will be over or you'll just accommodate with it.

Life just sucks man. I'm tired of giving this world my energy.

I hold it all in and then I can't take it anymore and I collapse on my floor in a drunken state. Can't get up from the floor.

It's all just too much for me.

 

[Roastie Crusher]

i don't what's the point of roping unless you have severe physical pain or you can't have depression treated

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

i don't what's the point of roping unless you have severe physical pain or you can't have depression treated

Mental pain is worse then physical. I have broken multiple bones in my body, lacerated my liver.

None of it compares to getting mentally beaten down into the ground. I can barely get up out of bed.

 

[Lonelyus]

I had pain in upper abdomen for 30 whole minutes yesterday idk what it was thought i was gonna die.

 

[jetmech2001]

Hey bro, it looks like we are the same age. I understand it seems like its better to just end your suffering, but as a police officer I saw very often with suicides that one persons suicide would cause more down the road. I once responded to a call where a kid, his parents, and a few of the grandparents had all killed themselves after discovering of the previous generations suicide. And even if you dont care about that, you have us, and your irl friends, if you have any. Trust me man, theres always a hail mary chance that shit gets better tomorrow.

 

[lifeisfucked215]

Hey bro, it looks like we are the same age. I understand it seems like its better to just end your suffering, but as a police officer I saw very often with suicides that one persons suicide would cause more down the road. I once responded to a call where a kid, his parents, and a few of the grandparents had all killed themselves after discovering of the previous generations suicide. And even if you dont care about that, you have us, and your irl friends, if you have any. Trust me man, theres always a hail mary chance that shit gets better tomorrow.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I had pain in upper abdomen for 30 whole minutes yesterday idk what it was thought i was gonna die.

Did you feel at peace?

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Hey bro, it looks like we are the same age. I understand it seems like its better to just end your suffering, but as a police officer I saw very often with suicides that one persons suicide would cause more down the road. I once responded to a call where a kid, his parents, and a few of the grandparents had all killed themselves after discovering of the previous generations suicide. And even if you dont care about that, you have us, and your irl friends, if you have any. Trust me man, theres always a hail mary chance that shit gets better tomorrow.

I just don't like seeing other people suffering.

I just think it's all evil. It's unfair. We don't deserve this.

I feel the weight of the Sorrow of this world. And it crushes me.

 

[Lonelyus]

Did you feel at peace?

I was ready to die by unknown causes, Doctors always reject me so they are pointless.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Where I live everyone is an alcoholic. People are passed out on the streets. On playgrounds.

Their mother's and fathers are in jail or are abusive towards them. I live in a horrible world.

I saw this stuff even when I was a kid. And I knew plenty of people who grew up without families.

Freedom from this place is all we have to look forward to, and even that is not certain.

I could cry for days and it still wouldn't come close to the level of Sorrow in this world.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I was ready to die by unknown causes, Doctors always reject me so they are pointless.

Death is the only freedom from this place.

 

[Praetorian Kanga]

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[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I will be fine brocels, thank you for the replies.

I just had a really low night tonight. Collapsing under the weight of my own failures.

I hope you all know that I love you all, and I would give my life for you if I could.

Eventually it will all be over. This suffering will end one day.

 

[Lonelyus]

I will be fine brocels, thank you for the replies.

I just had a really low night tonight. Collapsing under the weight of my own failures.

I hope you all know that I love you all, and I would give my life for you if I could.

Eventually it will all be over. This suffering will end one day.

I might plan to rope by SN soon

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I might plan to rope by SN soon

I hope you decide to stay brother. Believe me I know what it's like to want to leave. But I would give it some time before you do so.

Feel free to reach out to me if you want someone to talk to.

Avoid the drugs and alcohol if possible. I will try to do the same.

 

[Lonelyus]

I hope you decide to stay brother. Believe me I know what it's like to want to leave. But I would give it some time before you do so.

Feel free to reach out to me if you want someone to talk to.

Avoid the drugs and alcohol if possible. I will try to do the same.

I dont have emotions anymore after they were beaten the shit out of me by society, Life is now bland and pointless and i wish to feel again, Ive been thru the darkest depression emotions and just sat there for years, The past 2 years ive felt nothing, And i cry like 1 time a year now, Thats how much of a husk of a man im rn.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I've developed the shakes from drinking for so long. I was shaking at the cash register the other day when I was trying to pay with my card.

Sometimes I'll feel so weak and tired that when I drink it's the only time I smile or feel somewhat happy.

It's a brutal life man.

 

[Lonelyus]

I've developed the shakes from drinking for so long. I was shaking at the cash register the other day when I was trying to pay with my card.

Sometimes I'll feel so weak and tired that when I drink it's the only time I smile or feel somewhat happy.

It's a brutal life man.

I act as normal and manly as possible at the stores to not get laughted at by the cashiers and people in line.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I dont have emotions anymore after they were beaten the shit out of me by society, Life is now bland and pointless and i wish to feel again, Ive been thru the darkest depression emotions and just sat there for years, The past 2 years ive felt nothing, And i cry like 1 time a year now, Thats how much of a husk of a man im rn.

It's okay to cry brocel. I cry often. Maybe that will relieve some of the sorrow.

You are not a husk, you are a good soul. And you deserve to feel love just like anyone else.

 

[Sgtpinkie]

Stay strong brother. I’m not gonna provide advice like some normalfag. I pray for your ascension. And recovery. We’re all hurting. And I’m sorry to hear your at the end of your rope.

Just know it’s not you. It’s them (Soyciety). They failed you. You didn’t fail a soul.
I’m a failure too. We all are.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I act as normal and manly as possible at the stores to not get laughted at by the cashiers and people in line.

I try to do the same. The other day one of the cashiers was making fun of me, and I just looked at them straight in the eyes as dead as possible and they looked away in fear.

Normies have no spine. We have to put them in their place or else they will continue on believing that they can do no wrong.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Stay strong brother. I’m not gonna provide advice like some normalfag. I pray for your ascension. And recovery. We’re all hurting. And I’m sorry to hear your at the end of your rope.

Just know it’s not you. It’s them (Soyciety). They failed you. You didn’t fail a soul.
I’m a failure too. We all are.

I will always love you regardless (no homo). You did not deserve this horrible life brocel.

You were never a failure in my eyes.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

To all my brocels.

I keep you in my heart always. I'll try and stay as long as I can. I'm fighting like fucking crazy.

Thank you guys so much man, I know I can be a lot to deal with, but I mean well.

This is the life of a truecel. Barely hanging on. Trying to find something to hang on to.

Thankfully I have this place. My home. And you guys are my family.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

To all my brocels.

I keep you in my heart always. I'll try and stay as long as I can. I'm fighting like fucking crazy.

Thank you guys so much man, I know I can be a lot to deal with, but I mean well.

This is the life of a truecel. Barely hanging on. Trying to find something to hang on to.

Thankfully I have this place. My home. And you guys are my family.

Be kind to yourselves even if it is hard to do so.

We will all get through this. We are all in this together.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Goodnight, love you all.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Reach out to me tomorrow and vent please. I do not want to see you guys go too soon.

I understand what you're going through.

 

[oldNgreycel]

No you fucking don't. You're a good person and I'll be damned if I let you do anything foolish. Get some sleep and in the morning dump out all the booze. It's doing you nothing but harm. I'm praying for you.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

No you fucking don't. You're a good person and I'll be damned if I let you do anything foolish. Get some sleep and in the morning dump out all the booze. It's doing you nothing but harm. I'm praying for you.

I'm gonna dump it out tomorrow. Only have a few shots left. Can't be bothered to finish it.

Been drinking water. Gonna lay down. Thank you brocel.

I'm not religious but I keep you guys in my thoughts always.

 

[oldNgreycel]

I'm gonna dump it out tomorrow. Only have a few shots left. Can't be bothered to finish it.

Been drinking water. Gonna lay down. Thank you brocel.

I'm not religious but I keep you guys in my thoughts always.

 

[NeverGetUp]

It looks like the booze is destroying you even more than inceldom itself

 

[kcarrots]

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I am so sorry, I hope you find a way to keep fighting and eventually be happy you fought this long

 

[NiggerAnnihilator]

Mental pain is worse then physical. I have broken multiple bones in my body, lacerated my liver.

None of it compares to getting mentally beaten down into the ground. I can barely get up out of bed.

im fighting mental pain right now too. i’d rather have my arm skinned than deal with this shit. fucking pain just won’t leave my head no matter how much i try. been suffering the past month with it.

 

[IamKanga]

I might plan to rope by SN soon

 

[coping_manlet]

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Are your eyes bruised or just bags from exhaustion?

Also, don’t rope Brocel. Go sober up and have a cigarette and a coffee. It’s not your time yet brethren. The forum still needs you

 

[IamKanga]

@SuperKanga.Belgrade don't brocel

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

im fighting mental pain right now too. i’d rather have my arm skinned than deal with this shit. fucking pain just won’t leave my head no matter how much i try. been suffering the past month with it.

I'm sorry brocel. Hopefully you'll feel better soon.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Are your eyes bruised or just bags from exhaustion?

Also, don’t rope Brocel. Go sober up and have a cigarette and a coffee. It’s not your time yet brethren. The forum still needs you

Just exhausted tbh

I'm gonna try and get sober. Just a bad night.

 

[Knajjd]

stop thinking at all and get a good day's sleep

Sleep is absolutely crucial, it's the to priority.