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blackpill overdosed once again after a long period of social isolation and coping with video games to read chats and peer into the thoughts of sexhavers and chads with bpd girls who obsess over chad and would do anything for his love and attention. the real currency in life is that of genetics, and i am filled with temporary envy. this emotion of being mogged so greatly makes me want to accomplish great things so i can also mog and feel accomplished, but i feel so limited by my social ineptitude, after learning from my professors that connections is a prerequisite for success, hard work only gets you so far. as one great blackpiller said, giving up is the hardest thing, to resign oneself fully, eventhough for most of us here, it's truly over, sexwise and careerwise. hope is what gives life after all, it's built into our genetic code (read about the drowning rats experiment).
to know that there are a small percentage of men who won the genetic lottery and picked the right parents to be able to launch themselves into a fulfilling and well paying career to be the king of capitalism, plutocracy, and cronyism and have countless (literally too many girls he fucked to count) women lining up to have a turn riding his cock, and him being able to live out his hentai fantasies of fucking all the girls and being able to participate in sadistic activities of abuse and inflict emotional trauma onto women with masochistic profiles who beg to get hurt, dont forget the endless drugs that further propel this euphoria. i haven't spoken to a human in so long that after just exchanging a small conversation, the feeling of sharing a moment with someone activated my human desire for socialising, despite hating it
also these small percentage of men also have the iq view life through the blackpill for what it is, and revel in their stochastic superiority via genetics, parents, and their environment. life must be so unthinkably different for them compared to us, just like how an outlier high iq person is able to think of abstract math theories while a lower iq will NEVER be able to understand or fathom what the high iq is thinking of in their mind.
bros, i have been socially isolated for so long because of my paranoia, high introversion, asd and i just needed to share this because i think there is meaning found in sharing moments of relatability, even if it's just cringe and water is wet. i can only say it's mentally paralysing, to be aware of my own social incompetence relative to my peers, to not be able to read the room, to gauge how others feel, to guess with any hint of accuracy their desires and thoughts, it's like i am an alien. i can only view everything through an evolutionary lens, because science reliably explains behaviour most of the time.
i'm probably forget all this in the coming days as i have to go back being a studycel, which is good so i can keep my mind away from how brutal life is, but i am writing this because i need to remind myself in the future of how brutal it is, so i can know that most moments i have in life are not as excruciatingly brutal as this one, truly the duality of things; winners and losers
to know that there are a small percentage of men who won the genetic lottery and picked the right parents to be able to launch themselves into a fulfilling and well paying career to be the king of capitalism, plutocracy, and cronyism and have countless (literally too many girls he fucked to count) women lining up to have a turn riding his cock, and him being able to live out his hentai fantasies of fucking all the girls and being able to participate in sadistic activities of abuse and inflict emotional trauma onto women with masochistic profiles who beg to get hurt, dont forget the endless drugs that further propel this euphoria. i haven't spoken to a human in so long that after just exchanging a small conversation, the feeling of sharing a moment with someone activated my human desire for socialising, despite hating it
also these small percentage of men also have the iq view life through the blackpill for what it is, and revel in their stochastic superiority via genetics, parents, and their environment. life must be so unthinkably different for them compared to us, just like how an outlier high iq person is able to think of abstract math theories while a lower iq will NEVER be able to understand or fathom what the high iq is thinking of in their mind.
bros, i have been socially isolated for so long because of my paranoia, high introversion, asd and i just needed to share this because i think there is meaning found in sharing moments of relatability, even if it's just cringe and water is wet. i can only say it's mentally paralysing, to be aware of my own social incompetence relative to my peers, to not be able to read the room, to gauge how others feel, to guess with any hint of accuracy their desires and thoughts, it's like i am an alien. i can only view everything through an evolutionary lens, because science reliably explains behaviour most of the time.
i'm probably forget all this in the coming days as i have to go back being a studycel, which is good so i can keep my mind away from how brutal life is, but i am writing this because i need to remind myself in the future of how brutal it is, so i can know that most moments i have in life are not as excruciatingly brutal as this one, truly the duality of things; winners and losers
