Serious Bullied so much that I only fantasize being abused

[mrlunatic]

I've faced so much physical and emotional abuse from people in my life that to this date, I have never fantasized about being cuddled or loved.

The only type of fantasies I have are of being verbally berated, slapped and beaten.

I'm incapable of imagining a healthy relationship.

 

[tradswede]

You fantasize about getting abused by foids?

 

[mrlunatic]

You fantasize about getting abused by foids?

Yes, that's all I can do.

 

[Morbilius]

Quit watching femdom porn it's rotting your brain beyond repair

 

[mrlunatic]

Quit watching femdom porn it's rotting your brain beyond repair

Where did I say I watch femdom?

 

[Morbilius]

Where did I say I watch femdom?

I just assumed based on your inclination of wanting to be abused by foids

 

[tradswede]

Yes, that's all I can do.

, I fantasize about abusing foids from time to time but mainly I daydream about cuddles

 

[mrlunatic]

I just assumed based on your inclination of wanting to be abused by foids

I've tried watching femdom, I don't like seeing dudes get pegged. It's gross.

It has nothing to do with femdom, and more about how I imagine myself in a relationship with a foid.

 

[tradswede]

I think you should stop, it seems like a bad habit idk

 

[hunter x atomics]

freud would have killed to study you, but also same

 

[mrlunatic]

freud would have killed to study you

Why? What part of his study was this?

 

[Morbilius]

I've tried watching femdom, I don't like seeing dudes get pegged. It's gross.

It has nothing to do with femdom, and more about how I imagine myself in a relationship with a foid.

What kind of abuse do you imagine foids doing to you? Is it sexual in nature or is it just everyday type of degradation? You said you wanted to be slapped and beaten which feels closer to someone with a porn addiction. Some men also like being paypigs where they fantasize about foids using them only for their wallet, wild how fucked the human brain can get

 

[H U N T E R]

I just assumed based on your inclination of wanting to be abused by foids

How long have you been without consuming pornography?

 

[mrlunatic]

What kind of abuse do you imagine foids doing to you? Is it sexual in nature or is it just everyday type of degradation? You said you wanted to be slapped and beaten which feels closer to someone with a porn addiction. Some men also like being paypigs where they fantasize about foids using them only for their wallet, wild how fucked the human brain can get

Neither sexual or monetary abuse. You ever see dudes constantly talk about they imagine being loved by hypothetical foids in a relationship? Well I do the same, but I can't imagine myself getting loved. I only see myself as being emotionally and physically abused in the relationship. I just can't for the life of me imagine a healthy relationship.

 

[Morbilius]

How long have you been without consuming pornography?

I jerk off everyday unfortunately, when I take antidepressants my sex drive depleats by a lot though.

 

[mrlunatic]

I jerk off everyday unfortunately, when I take antidepressants my sex drive depleats by a lot though.

Why would you take those meds ? I've taken them and they're the worst imaginable things to be dependent on. Rather be mentally insane. Unless you've something serious like BPD or schizophrenia, in which case I'm sorry.

 

[Morbilius]

Neither sexual or monetary abuse. You ever see dudes constantly talk about they imagine being loved by hypothetical foids in a relationship? Well I do the same, but I can't imagine myself getting loved. I only see myself as being emotionally and physically abused in the relationship. I just can't for the life of me imagine a healthy relationship.

Yeah I get what you mean I can't imagine it either, but I also don't imagine any foid abusing me. Maybe my imagination is shot to shit but I can't think of anytime where I thought of a relationship that I myself would ever be able to be in, it feels too absurd. It would be more realistic to imagine myself as a warlord or emperor of some kind then being in a relationship with a foid, that might be even more sad and pathetic the more i think about it..

 

[Poopless One]

I fantasize about my bullies being raped.

 

[Morbilius]

Why would you take those meds ? I've taken them and they're the worst imaginable things to be dependent on. Rather be mentally insane. Unless you've something serious like BPD or schizophrenia, in which case I'm sorry.

I've been on and off them for the past 2 years. I'm off them now but whenever I take them I feel off but more numb, they allow me to think more clearly I guess. I only take zoloft and haven't been diagnosed with anything other then depression/anxiety though my doctor thinks I might also have ADD idk

 

[z_ro]

Nah, that won't happen to you IRL. Only foids experience pain as pleasure. Even if a foid verbally abuses you, you wouldn't like it. Your defense mechanism would kick in almost immediately and protect your ego as much as possible.

 

[Clit CFO]

at least you aren't into pretending to be a baby

 

[Lo3e]

This doesn't surprise me. This is super common especially among men who were bullied at a young age.

 

[FarangInDaNang]

You fantasize about getting abused by foids?

That’s brutal, are you addicted to porn?

 

[FarangInDaNang]

Nah, that won't happen to you IRL. Only foids experience pain as pleasure. Even if a foid verbally abuses you, you wouldn't like it. Your defense mechanism would kick in almost immediately and protect your ego as much as possible.

 

[tradswede]

That’s brutal, are you addicted to porn?

Yeah

 

[FarangInDaNang]

Yeah

That probably amplified it, especially if you are watching femdom shit, try to quit porn and just take it easy, it might be cooked anyways though and is a psychological thing at this point but if you quit porn atleast u can deal with the trauma better and stop internalizing it and getting off to your defeat, it’s a sort of self punishment, I know from experience, it is NOT good

 

[FarangInDaNang]

Quit watching femdom porn it's rotting your brain beyond repair

 

[nihilum]

It’s over for femdomcels.