I'm 24 now. Back when I was 7, I was going out with my mom while she was shopping for beauty products/clothes (not important) when I came across a couple. They were blind, both. Good looking couple, looksmatched. I was a kid with very little exposure to disabled people so I'm ashamed to say I stared at them (not that they could ever know). Watched them enjoy each other's company. As a kid, their love seemed so pure, so honest (blind women still go for attractive men, which I learned way later on of course) and I wondered if I'd ever have something like that.
As you can see by the title, it's nearly been 20 years since that and I've not had anything close to that. I had a bluepilled phase, then a redpilled phase, a blackpilled phase and even tried to get away from it all. If you check my profile, I haven't been on this forum in a while. It's not because I ascended or debunked the black pill. For some time I really put on some effort on myself, more than ever before. I came back empty-handed.
That blind couple remained in my thoughts thorought pretty much all of my life. I always strived to achieve a semblance of what I witnessed that day and failed every step of the way. Despite that, in the back of my mind I kept wondering if I really gave all that I had, I couldn't call myself an Incel if I couldn't answer that.
But now I can.
As you can see by the title, it's nearly been 20 years since that and I've not had anything close to that. I had a bluepilled phase, then a redpilled phase, a blackpilled phase and even tried to get away from it all. If you check my profile, I haven't been on this forum in a while. It's not because I ascended or debunked the black pill. For some time I really put on some effort on myself, more than ever before. I came back empty-handed.
That blind couple remained in my thoughts thorought pretty much all of my life. I always strived to achieve a semblance of what I witnessed that day and failed every step of the way. Despite that, in the back of my mind I kept wondering if I really gave all that I had, I couldn't call myself an Incel if I couldn't answer that.
But now I can.
