cvh1991
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My day goes like this:
1) Get up early. brush my teeth, shower, get dressed for work.
2) Drive through rush hour traffic in the city to get to work (about an hour away — I have to do this because housing is totally unaffordable in the city)
3) At work we have far *far* too many layers of management. They track everything everyone does at all times. We have to give reports at the end of each day and an even more comprehensive report at the start of each week — to people who don’t do anything else and have no real function in the company except as “watch dogs” to keep staff under pressure. Normally the layers of management are really just the owner class and they want to feel like they do something for their egos (they don’t).
4) At the end of the day I drive home (another hour gone). The traffic makes me want to blow my head off with a shotgun. It is truly incredible how the rules of the road just don’t exist for so many selfish cunts out there. They just blatantly run red lights, they don’t use their turn signals, they either go 15 MPH under the speed limit or fly by you at 100 miles an hour, it’s just nuts the shit I see on the road every day. I’m practically amazed I haven’t gotten in a wreck with one of these “people” yet. Yesterday I saw a woman on her phone get tboned when she ran a red light. If you want to witness the depravity and pure retardation of the human species look no further than a drive at rush hour around an American city.
5) I finally get home — I am now too exhausted to do… really anything at all. I just lay in bed most days till tomorrow.
I used to play games and watch TV. But all of the shows and movies now are pure slop pushing an ideological agenda I profoundly disagree with. Games are now mostly the same too. When I do play games I find I just play old good ones over and over again. But even then I just don’t have the willpower to go to the effort anymore. It’s all so tiresome.
I basically go home, might eat some dinner, then lay in my bed til I fall asleep at which point the day starts all over. Sometimes I go for walks or to the park — those are pretty much the happiest moments I have now. I get the feeling those things would be more fun if I had a nice wife or some kids to do that with.
Financially it really seems like young people have no chance unless you’re born into a family that can get you a good job or that already had a lot of established wealth and assets. I honestly don’t know how people are making it out there. I am extreme frugal with my money, but but most of it goes towards recurring costs you can’t flex much on (rent + utilities + gas + groceries + vehicle repair + insurances + phone bill, etc).
I’m just really tired guys. I try to catch up on my sleep on the weekends but my body won’t let me since the weeks schedule is basically ingrained into my head now.
I find I feel a lot of hatred towards the executives and managers in my company. I know exactly what they do with their time and I wish I could get a job like that. I feel a lot of an envy towards others who seem to have happy lives. I never had a relationship really with my parents/family.
I don’t know where I’m going with this but I look at my life and what am I doing? I just work to make someone else rich. It feels like I’ve steadily been losing my sanity for a few years now. Nobody really likes me IRL and, to be honest, I guess I don’t like them either broadly speaking. There is basically no viable way to meet women (dating apps are a hard dead end for example). I dunno, just seems like it would’ve been better not to have been born if this is all life is about.
Interesting video I saw:
View: https://youtu.be/hoC0a3lZCOY
Where is our noble cause? What can I be a part of that’s bigger than myself that’s actually worth it? Where’s my family? What’s the point, really, in all this without those things? I might as well be a gear in a car engine. One day I’ll die, having had a net negative life, and … that’s it. Just seems like to shouldn’t have to be that way. Seems like it didn’t use to be for our ancestors, at least during some times. Ideally I would really like to act in some way to fix the problems I see in my society — I wish I could fix things or make things better. But I sure don’t see how, i don’t control a news station or a social media company. I’m not an elected official, I don’t have any institutional power. There’s a kind of pain you feel when you see a big problem that others either dont or are ignoring, have plans for how things might be improved, but you’re not able to do anything actionable. And if you even dare speak the truth about how terribly things are going the powers that be will drag you through the mud. Things are not good lads, feels pretty hopeless most days.
1) Get up early. brush my teeth, shower, get dressed for work.
2) Drive through rush hour traffic in the city to get to work (about an hour away — I have to do this because housing is totally unaffordable in the city)
3) At work we have far *far* too many layers of management. They track everything everyone does at all times. We have to give reports at the end of each day and an even more comprehensive report at the start of each week — to people who don’t do anything else and have no real function in the company except as “watch dogs” to keep staff under pressure. Normally the layers of management are really just the owner class and they want to feel like they do something for their egos (they don’t).
4) At the end of the day I drive home (another hour gone). The traffic makes me want to blow my head off with a shotgun. It is truly incredible how the rules of the road just don’t exist for so many selfish cunts out there. They just blatantly run red lights, they don’t use their turn signals, they either go 15 MPH under the speed limit or fly by you at 100 miles an hour, it’s just nuts the shit I see on the road every day. I’m practically amazed I haven’t gotten in a wreck with one of these “people” yet. Yesterday I saw a woman on her phone get tboned when she ran a red light. If you want to witness the depravity and pure retardation of the human species look no further than a drive at rush hour around an American city.
5) I finally get home — I am now too exhausted to do… really anything at all. I just lay in bed most days till tomorrow.
I used to play games and watch TV. But all of the shows and movies now are pure slop pushing an ideological agenda I profoundly disagree with. Games are now mostly the same too. When I do play games I find I just play old good ones over and over again. But even then I just don’t have the willpower to go to the effort anymore. It’s all so tiresome.
I basically go home, might eat some dinner, then lay in my bed til I fall asleep at which point the day starts all over. Sometimes I go for walks or to the park — those are pretty much the happiest moments I have now. I get the feeling those things would be more fun if I had a nice wife or some kids to do that with.
Financially it really seems like young people have no chance unless you’re born into a family that can get you a good job or that already had a lot of established wealth and assets. I honestly don’t know how people are making it out there. I am extreme frugal with my money, but but most of it goes towards recurring costs you can’t flex much on (rent + utilities + gas + groceries + vehicle repair + insurances + phone bill, etc).
I’m just really tired guys. I try to catch up on my sleep on the weekends but my body won’t let me since the weeks schedule is basically ingrained into my head now.
I find I feel a lot of hatred towards the executives and managers in my company. I know exactly what they do with their time and I wish I could get a job like that. I feel a lot of an envy towards others who seem to have happy lives. I never had a relationship really with my parents/family.
I don’t know where I’m going with this but I look at my life and what am I doing? I just work to make someone else rich. It feels like I’ve steadily been losing my sanity for a few years now. Nobody really likes me IRL and, to be honest, I guess I don’t like them either broadly speaking. There is basically no viable way to meet women (dating apps are a hard dead end for example). I dunno, just seems like it would’ve been better not to have been born if this is all life is about.
Interesting video I saw:
View: https://youtu.be/hoC0a3lZCOY
Where is our noble cause? What can I be a part of that’s bigger than myself that’s actually worth it? Where’s my family? What’s the point, really, in all this without those things? I might as well be a gear in a car engine. One day I’ll die, having had a net negative life, and … that’s it. Just seems like to shouldn’t have to be that way. Seems like it didn’t use to be for our ancestors, at least during some times. Ideally I would really like to act in some way to fix the problems I see in my society — I wish I could fix things or make things better. But I sure don’t see how, i don’t control a news station or a social media company. I’m not an elected official, I don’t have any institutional power. There’s a kind of pain you feel when you see a big problem that others either dont or are ignoring, have plans for how things might be improved, but you’re not able to do anything actionable. And if you even dare speak the truth about how terribly things are going the powers that be will drag you through the mud. Things are not good lads, feels pretty hopeless most days.
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