It's an odd feeling...

[Deta97]

I'm sitting here alone with my own thoughts just thinking about how easy it would be to finally snap and just take everything by force, even at the expense of others' wellbeing, yet aware of the futility of it all, since I know that at the end of the day, the world and its people have nothing to offer.

I'm pretty mad about this whole situation, always being the one to settle for scraps, while others succeed. But this is vanity. So what am I do do now?

I've said this about 5 years ago, but life, to me, is just one big joke that everyone's in on except me, and that I was never meant to win, even when the odds appear in my favor.

But despite all that, I refuse to settle. It's not in my nature, regardless if I have major shortcomings, whether it'd be physical or social.

Is my role in this life to be the villain? It seems to be the path for me, since the only thing that seems to fuel me is through pain and adversity, rather than comfort (except from God, since He's the only being I can trust).

Truly, whenever I choose to become ruthless, I want the world to know (even though I care very little how you judge me after showing me your true colors), that I didn't choose this. I never wanted to hurt anyone, but whenever I become the monster, it is done purely out of necessity.

And should there be a day where I come into your life, and you refuse to see my worth, I'm not going to beg. I'm not going to argue, or waste time trying to convince you. Instead, I'll bury you so deep into the sand you so love to bury yourself into, that you can never get out. And while you remain in your delusion, I'll see to it that I become the winner.

And I'll do it my own way.

 

[Icarus]

(except for God, since He's the only being I can trust).

I've got some bad news for you

 

[Oogger]

I've got some bad news for you

JFLLLL

 

[Deta97]

I've got some bad news for you

What's it to you?

 

[Icarus]

What's it to you?

Everything

 

[Deta97]

Everything

You embarass yourself.

 

[Icarus]

You embarass yourself.

And it means nothing to me

 

[Deta97]

And it means nothing to me

If it didn't, you wouldn't need to tell me.

 

[unlovedcel]

the villain route doesn't work no matter how alluring it is. when you finish walking that path you will be left even more empty knowing that normies never had to and were on top always.

 

[Deta97]

the villain route doesn't work no matter how alluring it is. when you finish walking that path you will be left even more empty knowing that normies never had to and were on top always.

You're not wrong. They didn't have to put in nearly as much effort as I have to. But as I've said in another thread, the normies can fight amongst themselves for the throne of the "alpha-gorilla".

I will build a kingdom of my own from the ashes, and it will be one which cannot be moved or shaken, for it will be done in such a way, that only I can do it. And whoever tries to replicate it, will by all means fail, for they have not gone through the fire I've passed, am passing, and will pass through to build it.

 

[unlovedcel]

I will build a kingdom of my own from the ashes, and it will be one which cannot be moved or shaken, for it will be done in such a way, that only I can do it. And whoever tries to replicate it, will by all means fail, for they have not gone through the fire I've passed, am passing, and will pass through to build it.

your ego will try. and it will fail. and you will realize the straight path was always the path, and you were not even allowed to step foot on it. and you will be left with even less than you started.

 

[Deta97]

and you will realize the straight path was always the path, and you were not even allowed to step foot on it.

And who decided that?

 

[unlovedcel]

And who decided that?

not me. it is only the way that it is.

escape routes are fantasy. seek them and this is what you shall find.

 

[Deta97]

not me. it is only the way that it is.

And who decided that?

escape routes are fantasy.

And whoever said anything about "escaping"?

There is no escape. There is only resolve!

 

[unlovedcel]

And who decided that?

read your post. you know who it is that decides The Way.
if this is also your way, then blessed are you. otherwise there is no hope.

 

[DutchCel01]

sounds like some shit an anime protagonist would say nigga. get a burger relax

 

[thisgoodlife]

You won’t be given the opportunity to be “villain.” Well, assuming you don’t do anything illegal, of course. We incels are viewed not as villains, but as pieces of shit.

 

[UglyDumbass]

I'm sitting here alone with my own thoughts just thinking about how easy it would be to finally snap and just take everything by force, even at the expense of others' wellbeing, yet aware of the futility of it all, since I know that at the end of the day, the world and its people have nothing to offer.

I'm pretty mad about this whole situation, always being the one to settle for scraps, while others succeed. But this is vanity. So what am I do do now?

I've said this about 5 years ago, but life, to me, is just one big joke that everyone's in on except me, and that I was never meant to win, even when the odds appear in my favor.

But despite all that, I refuse to settle. It's not in my nature, regardless if I have major shortcomings, whether it'd be physical or social.

Is my role in this life to be the villain? It seems to be the path for me, since the only thing that seems to fuel me is through pain and adversity, rather than comfort (except from God, since He's the only being I can trust).

Truly, whenever I choose to become ruthless, I want the world to know (even though I care very little how you judge me after showing me your true colors), that I didn't choose this. I never wanted to hurt anyone, but whenever I become the monster, it is done purely out of necessity.

And should there be a day where I come into your life, and you refuse to see my worth, I'm not going to beg. I'm not going to argue, or waste time trying to convince you. Instead, I'll bury you so deep into the sand you so love to bury yourself into, that you can never get out. And while you remain in your delusion, I'll see to it that I become the winner.

And I'll do it my own way.

Is my role in this life to be the villain?

That’s basically it. People want us to be evil.

 

[Deta97]

That’s basically it. People want us to be evil.

Then we might as well give it to them and show them just how "evil" we are, right?

Not in a way that justifies their hate, but just cutting loose even if it means breaking a few rules, knowing that people are going to believe whatever they want about us. And if they can't accept us, then they just aren't worth our time.

 

[UglyDumbass]

Then we might as well give it to them and show them just how "evil" we are, right?

Not in a way that justifies their hate, but just cutting loose even if it means breaking a few rules, knowing that people are going to believe whatever they want about us. And if they can't accept us, then they just aren't worth our time.

That’s why I sometimes just wanna prank people in public or online. But at the end of the day what other thing can we do that won’t lead us to go to jail. Maybe we can give people stank looks

 

[fukurou]

your role in life is to be a meaningless observer, waiting out life to its meaningless conclusion.

you are a human being living in an artificial environment, an artificial man made prison.

 

[Deta97]

That’s why I sometimes just wanna prank people in public or online. But at the end of the day what other thing can we do that won’t lead us to go to jail. Maybe we can give people stank looks

Not bad, but maybe it's just me, but what would you gain from that in the long run?

Not saying you shouldn't, but if you could find a way to use that in such a way that gets you a step closer to ascending, then it's a start.

People always tell me the straight path is the right path, but the path that works for me is one that makes no sense to those on the outside.

Such is probably the same for you.

 

[coymaniac]

except from God, since He's the only being I can trust

And should there be a day where I come into your life, and you refuse to see my worth, I'm not going to beg. I'm not going to argue, or waste time trying to convince you. Instead, I'll bury you so deep into the sand you so love to bury yourself into, that you can never get out. And while you remain in your delusion, I'll see to it that I become the winner.

And I'll do it my own way.

God?! oh buddy, we're gonna need a chat

Who exactly are you going to bury? How do you think your gonna achieve this? They're all just words mate. you underestimate your own importance. We are truly insignificant. There's nothing we do that'll ever bury anyone, it's this way by design.

You sound angry, and that's okay. the only path is the straight path. acting like a piece of shit will just make it worse. for you. for us.

 

[Deta97]

God?! oh buddy, we're gonna need a chat

What concern is my belief to you?

 

[Poindexter]

(except from God, since He's the only being I can trust).

I wish i had the luxury of being able to believe in a higher power but the shit i've seen and experienced just tells me one doesn't exist

 

[Poindexter]

You won’t be given the opportunity to be “villain.” Well, assuming you don’t do anything illegal, of course. We incels are viewed not as villains, but as pieces of shit.

Cockroaches are regarded better than us

 

[Deta97]

I wish i had the luxury of being able to believe in a higher power but the shit i've seen and experienced just tells me one doesn't exist

Hum... Matter of perspective then.

 

[Deta97]

Who exactly are you going to bury? How do you think your gonna achieve this? They're all just words mate. you underestimate your own importance. We are truly insignificant. There's nothing we do that'll ever bury anyone, it's this way by design.

You sound angry, and that's okay. the only path is the straight path. acting like a piece of shit will just make it worse. for you. for us.

Took me a while to understand what you were trying to say here, but know that you are free to believe whatever you want to, that you are "truly insignificant", and that "there's nothing you can do about it".

But I advise you refrain from projecting your mindset onto me.

And furthermore, acting like a "piece of shit" will just make it "worse", for you, and for us.

Those are just words, mate.

 

[Grodd]

(except from God, since He's the only being I can trust).

 

[coymaniac]

Took me a while to understand what you were trying to say here, but know that you are free to believe whatever you want to, that you are "truly insignificant", and that "there's nothing you can do about it".

But I advise you refrain from projecting your mindset onto me.

And furthermore, acting like a "piece of shit" will just make it "worse", for you, and for us.

Those are just words, mate.

Tell me good sir, exactly how am I projecting?

You misunderstand my point. Your post was without context but still...

Let’s talk about the part where you’re “Burying people in the sand”? Bro, c’mon... what is this? Let’s not pretend this is some anime arc where becoming the monster earns you moral high ground. Who exactly is getting buried? How? With what power? Be real with yourself... those are just words. And I’m not saying that to mock you. I’ve said those kinds of things too, often, usually when I was tired, feeling powerless and wanted to sound like I still had control. Rage gives the illusion of strength when everything else feels empty.

It's the classic “if I can’t win the game, I’ll just flip the board and torch the room” speech. Been there. That constant grind of eating dust while watching others get paraded around for mediocrity? Yep, that’ll do things to your soul.

Let’s be real, nobody signs up to be the villain.... life just keeps pushing until playing the bad guy starts to feel like the only honest option.

No one’s getting buried. Not really. You could go full villain mode and the world would probably still scroll past. This world is built to ignore people like us.....quietly, constantly. That’s the actual enemy: the way life numbs us down and turns every effort into background noise. It’s not a reason to give up. It’s just a reminder that there are smarter ways to fight than swinging blindly at ghosts or yelling into the void. You’re not as powerless as you think, but you’re also not as important in the grand scheme as your pain makes you feel.

You sound angry.... and you should be. I hear ya bro.

You’re tired of begging for crumbs of respect without needing to explain yourself to people who never cared to look deeper. Valid. You can’t prove your worth to people who never saw you. You want to “win”? Fine. Just don’t forget that there are things in this world you don't get to change or control. Acting like a monster doesn’t scare the world, it just makes you bitter and easier to dismiss. And you’re already used to being dismissed, aren’t you?

You also said “the straight path” isn’t in your nature. Maybe not. But maybe your nature is more than just pain and vengeance. You mentioned ascending? So maybe there’s still a part of you that wants to build something, not just burn it all down.

Anyway, carry on. Monologue’s solid. Just maybe edit the part where you start sounding like a final boss with a martyr complex.

 

[Deta97]

Tell me good sir, exactly how am I projecting?

You misunderstand my point. Your post was without context but still...

Let’s talk about the part where you’re “Burying people in the sand”? Bro, c’mon... what is this? Let’s not pretend this is some anime arc where becoming the monster earns you moral high ground. Who exactly is getting buried? How? With what power? Be real with yourself... those are just words. And I’m not saying that to mock you. I’ve said those kinds of things too, often, usually when I was tired, feeling powerless and wanted to sound like I still had control. Rage gives the illusion of strength when everything else feels empty.

It's the classic “if I can’t win the game, I’ll just flip the board and torch the room” speech. Been there. That constant grind of eating dust while watching others get paraded around for mediocrity? Yep, that’ll do things to your soul.

Let’s be real, nobody signs up to be the villain.... life just keeps pushing until playing the bad guy starts to feel like the only honest option.

No one’s getting buried. Not really. You could go full villain mode and the world would probably still scroll past. This world is built to ignore people like us.....quietly, constantly. That’s the actual enemy: the way life numbs us down and turns every effort into background noise. It’s not a reason to give up. It’s just a reminder that there are smarter ways to fight than swinging blindly at ghosts or yelling into the void. You’re not as powerless as you think, but you’re also not as important in the grand scheme as your pain makes you feel.

You sound angry.... and you should be. I hear ya bro.

You’re tired of begging for crumbs of respect without needing to explain yourself to people who never cared to look deeper. Valid. You can’t prove your worth to people who never saw you. You want to “win”? Fine. Just don’t forget that there are things in this world you don't get to change or control. Acting like a monster doesn’t scare the world, it just makes you bitter and easier to dismiss. And you’re already used to being dismissed, aren’t you?

You also said “the straight path” isn’t in your nature. Maybe not. But maybe your nature is more than just pain and vengeance. You mentioned ascending? So maybe there’s still a part of you that wants to build something, not just burn it all down.

Anyway, carry on. Monologue’s solid. Just maybe edit the part where you start sounding like a final boss with a martyr complex.

Let me rephrase that then: I'll bury my doubters, slanderers, in their delusion. They are free to believe what they want to, but I'll see to it that they end up looking crazy when I evolve and make it to the top, and I'll make it undeniable.

Such as this for instance:

You say there's nothing I can do to "bury them", and that no matter what I do the world would still see me me as insignificant, but when you want something so bad, you'll find a way to make it happen, even if you end up having to go "underhanded".

My resolve to win strengthens with every setback and adversity, and in the event they choose to call me a "villain" or a "monster" because of it, so be it. Those are just words.

At the end of the day, I'll win one way or another.

And you're right, I suppose I do sound like a "final boss", but the thing is, no matter what people say about me, I'm the protagonist.

So, watch me.

 

[coymaniac]

Bold of you to declare yourself the protagonist when most people your age are debating if cereal counts as dinner. Every main character needs a monologue, i guess. I'm quietly rooting for you.

 

[Deta97]

Bold of you to declare yourself the protagonist when most people your age are debating if cereal counts as dinner. Every main character needs a monologue, i guess. I'm quietly rooting for you.

Mindset, my friend, mindset.