I was suicidal and depressed for some time. I ran out of copes. I didn't care about getting a gf or getting rich. It was all just pointless to me.
So I was thinking about buying a gun when I got enough money, and just pop it, you know?
But no more.
Why?
I talked to a foid about a university project. Basically I made a mistake that wasn't perfectly aligned to the "proper" output. I told her it would've been better to be more precise with instructions, but I DID revise it anyway. I even wrote out a "thank you". She then told me I should've listened better, and repeated back the "thank you" I sent at the end, like in a passive aggressive way.
I decided to fold and apologize while acknowledging my own mistakes. It was day late anyway to our internal deadline (not academic) cause I overslept. But I guess it was my fault, huh? I was trying to be POLITE.
She just gave me a "thumbs up" emoji.
Not even a written acknowledgement. Like whatever.
Fuck you.
Just cause this bitch has higher grades and better social circle than me, I'm just an annoyance to her. Not even worth a conversation outside of work? She also made fun of me once cause I talked too fast in a presentation. Just like that, the idea of dying before this foid does, just feels anger-inducing. A lot of ppl might even look down if I do that. And that just boils my blood.
I know that this is minor and trivial as fuck, but I genuinely don't care, I just NEEDED this single act of irritation to get me out of rotting in my bed.
I've decided that I HAVE to be succesful. Even if I'm an inept retard. Better than all of these fucks. Just to rub it in their faces. I'm going to attain as much power and wealth as I can - just so I can just tell YOU what to do. And if you have a problem with it, then go fuck yourself.
If even that fails then I go ER.
Better to burn bright and become ash than to rot beneath other's feet.
Spite is everything.
Thanks for listening to my TED talk
So I was thinking about buying a gun when I got enough money, and just pop it, you know?
But no more.
Why?
I talked to a foid about a university project. Basically I made a mistake that wasn't perfectly aligned to the "proper" output. I told her it would've been better to be more precise with instructions, but I DID revise it anyway. I even wrote out a "thank you". She then told me I should've listened better, and repeated back the "thank you" I sent at the end, like in a passive aggressive way.
I decided to fold and apologize while acknowledging my own mistakes. It was day late anyway to our internal deadline (not academic) cause I overslept. But I guess it was my fault, huh? I was trying to be POLITE.
She just gave me a "thumbs up" emoji.
Not even a written acknowledgement. Like whatever.
Fuck you.
Just cause this bitch has higher grades and better social circle than me, I'm just an annoyance to her. Not even worth a conversation outside of work? She also made fun of me once cause I talked too fast in a presentation. Just like that, the idea of dying before this foid does, just feels anger-inducing. A lot of ppl might even look down if I do that. And that just boils my blood.
I know that this is minor and trivial as fuck, but I genuinely don't care, I just NEEDED this single act of irritation to get me out of rotting in my bed.
I've decided that I HAVE to be succesful. Even if I'm an inept retard. Better than all of these fucks. Just to rub it in their faces. I'm going to attain as much power and wealth as I can - just so I can just tell YOU what to do. And if you have a problem with it, then go fuck yourself.
If even that fails then I go ER.
Better to burn bright and become ash than to rot beneath other's feet.
Spite is everything.
Thanks for listening to my TED talk
