Venting It wasn't really my parents fault

[Aventador]

When I was growing up my parents were sometimes negletful. however I think that if I weren't autistic I'd been just fine.

A lot of people I know, are coming from worse conditions and doing great.
Sure, would more support from my parents change my outlook and success in life? Yes, absolutely.

However, what mattered the most was my ND. I could've been a much happier person if I had a normal brain. A NT brain can adapt much better to life - making friends, connections and relationships are a staple of success and happy life.

I since accepted that I will never be normal, no matter how hard I tried.

 

[TooSomething]

Ask yourself where autism comes from.

Also, I am diagnosed as NT with autistic traits.

Since I have several personality disorders, it severely stunted my success in life.

Even colleagues at work noticed that I have a huge lack of confidence, for example.

On one hand I am a fast learner and can adapt to pretty much any job, other than anything that requires me to recognize colors since I am color blind, but my extreme lack of confidence makes it that much harder to have faith in my own abilities.

The simplest tasks take me ages to even start and then when I finally to bring myself to do it I usually finish them fast and properly.

Another problem is my extreme accuracy. I even had to tone that down at work because I was simply working too precisely. Still fast, but too accurate, which ultimately also leads to me burning out.

It is something that I've always felt the urge for, although I've been told to cool it with that and followed suit.
Still, the urge alone was tiring.

This happens everywhere in life. This is what happens when parents are not fit to parent children.

 

[elephant man]

90% of parenting happens before your born

 

[Aventador]

Ask yourself where autism comes from.

Also, I am diagnosed as NT with autistic traits.

Since I have several personality disorders, it severely stunted my success in life.

Even colleagues at work noticed that I have a huge lack of confidence, for example.

On one hand I am a fast learner and can adapt to pretty much any job, other than anything that requires me to recognize colors since I am color blind, but my extreme lack of confidence makes it that much harder to have faith in my own abilities.

The simplest tasks take me ages to even start and then when I finally to bring myself to do it I usually finish them fast and properly.

Another problem is my extreme accuracy. I even had to tone that down at work because I was simply working too precisely. Still fast, but too accurate, which ultimately also leads to me burning out.

It is something that I've always felt the urge for, although I've been told to cool it with that and followed suit.
Still, the urge alone was tiring.

This happens everywhere in life. This is what happens when parents are not fit to parent children.

I think its mostly genetic, other factors could be, modern society isolation - but still mostly genetic.

Seems like you have a preference for perfection, which isn't bad at all. However sonetimes I would agree its tiring to accept non optimal results, but sometimes its more logical.

Low self esteem originates from social status imo, if you get rejected by others its normal to have low self esteem. However it becomes a problem when it hinders your potential, and give to much respect to normies.

Stand tall and be proud of yourself. They couldn't do well like you did.