Same here. Another dependent factor for me though is how people react to me. I DO get my blackpilled side IRL a lot, but that's usually triggered from a foid giving me a dirty look, or slamming the door in my face, like what happened last week. But if nothing happens throughout the day, I'm just content.
No I definitely think all the time about the blackpill, I notice people's heights, hairlines, moggings, female interactions everything. But I don't really have time to reflect on them because I'm usually stressed out and afraid when outside. So in a way I feel like you that I think about these experiences a lot when I get back home.
Going outside alone is suicidefuel. Most people look at me like I’m going to rape or mug them when I’m alone, but if I’m with my mother she gives some of her halo effect and people just ignore me.
i read online about some men who thought that going out with their mother made it easier to approach women, and that this was them running "mom game" or "family man game" when the only effect was probably that people stopped perceiving them as a lonely man and thus didn't see them as a potentially unstable package of threats ready to explode, like they perceive men by default. who they were accompanied by didn't matter as much.
