Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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It's not that most people here are too successful or anything. I'm just that much of a loser. I get life-mogged, energy-mogged.
I can see that when I say that all I do is "laying in bed with my laptop for 16 hours a day" and have for more than 10 years, people don't really believe me. They think I'm exaggerating or lying. But I'm really not, this is all I do and all I have really done since I was a kid.
I mean, sure, it's not 16 hours a day every day. I went to school, I went to uni. Although in uni I also skipped a lot just so I could rot in bed staring at a screen. After highschool a lot more days were 16 hours a day rotting than not. But every summer since I was a child was the same, just rotting all day every day. My parents used to really hate it, we had a lot of arguments about it. But I'm really obstinate about this, all I wanted to do is turn my brain off and stare at a screen. Even when my parents made me go to a swimming pool 3 times a week during the summer, I'd hate even that. ANYTHING other than staying in my room in front of a computer was a huge drain on my energy, a huge pain in the ass.
Worse yet, I don't even do anything on the computer. I couldn't tell you what I did 2 hours ago on the computer, it's all just a blur of nonsense. Watching youtube, browsing some other site of endless shit content, or playing games. Hell, I don't even properly play games, I spend more time thinking about what to play, searching for a game, and yet I just end up uninstalling every game after a few minutes, cause my brain literally can't enjoy games anymore even if I force myself, even if I take breaks from gaming. My brain is broken and doesn't enjoy the only activity I ever sort of liked.
Anyway, you guys have a lot more energy than I do. You actually do things other than rot in bed. Tbh that makes you a better person than me so hang onto that and use it to achieve a degree of happiness. Tbh I'd love it if I could lie in bed with my computer for the rest of my life, but soon I'll have to wageslave for pennies. And it'll be the same lifestyle as school all over again:school work from morning till evening, and then RUSHING home at all costs to lie in bed with my laptop. God I hate work.
I can see that when I say that all I do is "laying in bed with my laptop for 16 hours a day" and have for more than 10 years, people don't really believe me. They think I'm exaggerating or lying. But I'm really not, this is all I do and all I have really done since I was a kid.
I mean, sure, it's not 16 hours a day every day. I went to school, I went to uni. Although in uni I also skipped a lot just so I could rot in bed staring at a screen. After highschool a lot more days were 16 hours a day rotting than not. But every summer since I was a child was the same, just rotting all day every day. My parents used to really hate it, we had a lot of arguments about it. But I'm really obstinate about this, all I wanted to do is turn my brain off and stare at a screen. Even when my parents made me go to a swimming pool 3 times a week during the summer, I'd hate even that. ANYTHING other than staying in my room in front of a computer was a huge drain on my energy, a huge pain in the ass.
Worse yet, I don't even do anything on the computer. I couldn't tell you what I did 2 hours ago on the computer, it's all just a blur of nonsense. Watching youtube, browsing some other site of endless shit content, or playing games. Hell, I don't even properly play games, I spend more time thinking about what to play, searching for a game, and yet I just end up uninstalling every game after a few minutes, cause my brain literally can't enjoy games anymore even if I force myself, even if I take breaks from gaming. My brain is broken and doesn't enjoy the only activity I ever sort of liked.
Anyway, you guys have a lot more energy than I do. You actually do things other than rot in bed. Tbh that makes you a better person than me so hang onto that and use it to achieve a degree of happiness. Tbh I'd love it if I could lie in bed with my computer for the rest of my life, but soon I'll have to wageslave for pennies. And it'll be the same lifestyle as school all over again: