This is actually the same text I used when registering, but I feel it explains my situation really well. I hope no one has anything against that.
Have been lurking for several months now.
I have Möbius syndrome, which has symptoms that vary based on severity. For me it means I cannot move my eyes side to side and my eyes are permanently cross-eyed. It also makes my voice really mumbled. I had to go to lengthy speech therapy to speak normally. I also have atopic dermatitis and horrible acne on my face (not sure if they are related, probably are). I am also somewhat short and round. That has to do with weight yes, but there is probably some genetics there too. So one could say my genetic base sucks really bad. Otherwise I am normal, and of normal intelligence. I'm European. I am 19 years of age and I just began university.
Links to Wikipedia:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Möbius_syndrome
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atopic_dermatitis
I was bullied in elementary and senior high school and that left me very cynical and hesitant to make friends. I get along very well with the few friends I have.
As one might imagine. my situation is one where girls are not interested in me. Really, the worst bullying came from girls. I despise slutty women and shirts that leave someone's belly exposed. I hate makeup. I hate modern culture as a whole, because I find it distasteful and that it breeds weak mindedness. Especially the culture of people my age, the teenagers and almost adults.
I fear rejection so I don't really try. I also feel that rejection is inevitable. Everyone seems to think that I, as a slightly disabled person, must be asexual.
I am not interested in procreation. I'd hate to leave my poor genetic base as a legacy for my offspring. I only want a girl who respects me and herself. Unfortunately, it seems girls like that are dwindling down in our modern society.
Am I an incel? I'd say so, yes. My standards are rather low. I guess someone could call me volcel, since I don't really try, but I'll let you be the judge on that.
I heard about incels after the Alek Minassian attack. Before that I thought I was alone in my struggles. The media of my country took a collective shit on the incel communities, but I found myself instatnly at home.You guys seem to understand everything I feel, so I want to join your community.