I'm sure you have some fungible and marketable skills that are either innate to you or can be cultivated to a level which enables you to capitalize upon them for either financial gain or the accrual of status and influence. I had always regarded myself as a perpetual fuck up and failure and it wasn't until my junior year as an undergraduate that I finally made the decision to apply myself towards constructive endeavors by earning high grades and aspiring to advance my condition in life through intellectual and professional achievement. Likewise, I also resolved to effectuate a complete physical transformation and went from being an emaciated, weak, lanky faggot who looked like he had just jumped the fence at Auschwitz to being literally bigger and physically stronger then almost anyone at my large university besides some of the linemen on our football team.
As for you general sense of disconsolation and disaffection with soyciety and life, this is precisely why we incels need to create an organization of incels, for incels and by incels which will do for us what the Nazi party in Germany did for all the honorable German patriots who had been disempowered by the jewish corruption of their country. I've been saying for a long time that we need either an incel support group irl or even an incel militia movement which will provide us with a sense of solidarity, camaraderie and collective security and give us a genuine purpose in life, just as putting on a Storm Trooper uniform gave men in Germany a purpose.