I don't know who else to talk to about this openly, and I know deep down that you all may definitely be the right people to fully understand what I'm about to discuss, so here it goes :
For about the last two years or so, I find myself randomly binge watching TV shows I grew up with as a kid or teen. Since many of these shows were literally shows I hadn't seen since, when you see them again, it's the closest thing to time travel. You literally feel like you were transported back to the time and place of when you first saw the show or episode in question. You refeel the same feelings of sadness, joy, suspense, etc, that came with first seeing it. You relive certain little moments associated with first seeing the episode. You feel like you're back in that moment of time, innocent, young, completely and blissfully clueless to the dark and miserable future that lies ahead.
When binging an entire series, it truly is a roller coaster of feelings. I feel the nostalgia and brief reminder of the fact that I once lived through better times, but truth be told, particularly during more emotional episodes or upon learning something heart breaking about characters or the nature of the episode, I also just start crying, because I so badly just wanna go back to those days. Not to change anything really, but just to refeel a few more joys and special moments that you really only get to know once.
Then when it's all said and done, I just come to accept the fact those days are gone for good, and I am no longer an innocent boy without a care in the world, but a grown man, living in dark and miserable times, often wondering why, and how I could go from the the innocent and care free boy I was then to the pathetic thing I am now. As of now, I simply go by the generic saying of how time waits for no one, and just keep the memories in my back pocket knowing they may be the only source of light in a future that just keeps getting darker by the hour. That is all.
For about the last two years or so, I find myself randomly binge watching TV shows I grew up with as a kid or teen. Since many of these shows were literally shows I hadn't seen since, when you see them again, it's the closest thing to time travel. You literally feel like you were transported back to the time and place of when you first saw the show or episode in question. You refeel the same feelings of sadness, joy, suspense, etc, that came with first seeing it. You relive certain little moments associated with first seeing the episode. You feel like you're back in that moment of time, innocent, young, completely and blissfully clueless to the dark and miserable future that lies ahead.
When binging an entire series, it truly is a roller coaster of feelings. I feel the nostalgia and brief reminder of the fact that I once lived through better times, but truth be told, particularly during more emotional episodes or upon learning something heart breaking about characters or the nature of the episode, I also just start crying, because I so badly just wanna go back to those days. Not to change anything really, but just to refeel a few more joys and special moments that you really only get to know once.
Then when it's all said and done, I just come to accept the fact those days are gone for good, and I am no longer an innocent boy without a care in the world, but a grown man, living in dark and miserable times, often wondering why, and how I could go from the the innocent and care free boy I was then to the pathetic thing I am now. As of now, I simply go by the generic saying of how time waits for no one, and just keep the memories in my back pocket knowing they may be the only source of light in a future that just keeps getting darker by the hour. That is all.
