When did Peterson say that?
I am truly useless. I think I failed at everything I ever tried. I can't earn money and I waste the little I have saved because I'm stupid and forget things. I failed school, I failed to get my dream career, or any career. And yes, the little things too, I break things, buy the wrong stuff, miss appointments and phone calls, heck, the last time I filled a document I put a typo on my email.
And that's ignoring all the issues I already have by being ugly and autistic. Couldn't I be one of those smart autistic people? No, not only I am socially inept, I am also stupid and incompetent at everything else. Couldn't there be one thing I shine at?
Even if I was more attractive I would repel women. Peterson is right, people and especially women are disgusted by useless, incompetent losers like me, because all human relationships are transactional and I have nothing to give. I can't do anything and I need other people to care for me. I am an adult and yet I am a net negative on my parents.
In university, before I failed that too, I saw other kids younger than I am building a life and becoming what they wanted, following their passions, getting families and independence, and here I am, an useless manchild who fucks everything up.
I'm tired. I have wanted to fix my life for a long time, but there is something wrong with my brain. I want to give up, nothing I try ever seems to work, in fact it gets worse.
