So I ventured myself on the risky endeavor of reading romance manga as an incel again.
I know many here might dislike/not care about the world cup since it's basically an apotheosis of tall, mostly above-average-looking millionaires being worshipped by the masses, but I must confess that the hype caused by a huge world event like that actually puts me in a strange good mood. So much so that I even noticed improvement in my productiveness as studied while listening to the cheerful Brazilian narration of the matches. Probably has to do with childhood memories tbh.
But then I decided to read this short yuri manga. I picked it up because it's one of the few seinen mangas I could find fully available in German (it looks like there's only one guy translating manga to German in the whole internet btw, step up your game, German weeb bros) and I've been learning German again. By the title and synopsis, I assumed it would be some lighthearted, shallow, bait series and didn't give it much thought, just jumped in.
Turns out it's full of feels to the point I had to double my usual dose of Clonazepan to even manage to get some sleep after finishing it in one go, even having relied on my modest B2 level German to read it. It's not only an atomic bomb of feelings of melancholy, sadness, frustration and longing for love well-known to us incels; the story is actually insanely well-constructed in a way that each page is a heartbeat skip and each little detail that appears unfolds itself later as something of huge relevance. It's honestly amazing, I have to throw the towel, I'd easily say it figures amongst the best ones I ever read in terms of plot development.
Although it obviously loses some relatableness points from my perspective for depicting a lesbian relationship, it actually managed to hit me even deeper than the "loser older man x cute young girl" classic favorites like Kodomo No Jikan and Miman Renai. Both because, as aforementioned in the old Kase-san thread I linked, it's way more realistic (it has idealized elements to it, for sure, but two cute girls around the same age being together is still much more realistic than a cute loli being together with a loser ugly man more than twice her age), but also, especially, because this manga actually shows a solidly developed relationship that actually builds tons of foundations until culminating in the consolidated relationship at the ending.
tl;dr: this time around, it wasn't merely "tfw you'll never kiss a cute JB", it was deeper, it was more like "tfw you'll never have someone who truly loves you in a deep, stable, well-grounded way."
I know many here might dislike/not care about the world cup since it's basically an apotheosis of tall, mostly above-average-looking millionaires being worshipped by the masses, but I must confess that the hype caused by a huge world event like that actually puts me in a strange good mood. So much so that I even noticed improvement in my productiveness as studied while listening to the cheerful Brazilian narration of the matches. Probably has to do with childhood memories tbh.
But then I decided to read this short yuri manga. I picked it up because it's one of the few seinen mangas I could find fully available in German (it looks like there's only one guy translating manga to German in the whole internet btw, step up your game, German weeb bros) and I've been learning German again. By the title and synopsis, I assumed it would be some lighthearted, shallow, bait series and didn't give it much thought, just jumped in.
Turns out it's full of feels to the point I had to double my usual dose of Clonazepan to even manage to get some sleep after finishing it in one go, even having relied on my modest B2 level German to read it. It's not only an atomic bomb of feelings of melancholy, sadness, frustration and longing for love well-known to us incels; the story is actually insanely well-constructed in a way that each page is a heartbeat skip and each little detail that appears unfolds itself later as something of huge relevance. It's honestly amazing, I have to throw the towel, I'd easily say it figures amongst the best ones I ever read in terms of plot development.
Although it obviously loses some relatableness points from my perspective for depicting a lesbian relationship, it actually managed to hit me even deeper than the "loser older man x cute young girl" classic favorites like Kodomo No Jikan and Miman Renai. Both because, as aforementioned in the old Kase-san thread I linked, it's way more realistic (it has idealized elements to it, for sure, but two cute girls around the same age being together is still much more realistic than a cute loli being together with a loser ugly man more than twice her age), but also, especially, because this manga actually shows a solidly developed relationship that actually builds tons of foundations until culminating in the consolidated relationship at the ending.
tl;dr: this time around, it wasn't merely "tfw you'll never kiss a cute JB", it was deeper, it was more like "tfw you'll never have someone who truly loves you in a deep, stable, well-grounded way."
Sorry for the blogpost, I missed making those since I was months away from here. Thank you if you actually read it all.
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