Venting I'm tired of being rejected & infantilised

[Livonica_Irreale]

Couldn't sleep today. I'm thinking about how detached from reality i am, and how i will cope in the future.
My earliest created fantasy, which i'm going to use - is to turn into detached prepper schizo maniac in the middle of nowhere with small farm & minefield to keep normalfags away.
I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like failed Haibane Renmei - who didn't get his absolution, and is turned into living in a purgatory until passing away.
I guess that's inceldom for you - a purgatory. I'd wish only for turning your eyes color into blank/light blue - to distinguish half-living emotional hulks from healthy/NT relationship havers.

 

[ManOfVengeance]

I couldn't sleep last night due to the normgroids, they don't want us to experience any sort of positive emotions, they want us to always feel nothing but misery.

I'm attempting to find comfort and acceptance in my rotmaxxing, you should try aswell.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like failed Haibane Renmei

That was a good anime tbh
I feel the same but I just sleep and do nothing

 

[xxectrapieces]

I feel the same as you do.

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

I couldn't sleep last night due to the normgroids, they don't want us to experience any sort of positive emotions, they want us to always feel nothing but misery.

I'm attempting to find comfort and acceptance in my rotmaxxing, you should try aswell.

I was trying to use my last reservoirs of energy to try ascending, but every time i tried - i failed.
Recently i experienced fake love simulation online during another stupid ascension trial, but again failed - it turned out foid was searching for simps to her online harem, and i quickly recognised manipulative pattern.
It seems i'm semi-desperate due to being in Himmlerite age. Man, i'm tired.
I want my emotions to be buried finally.

 

[drowningindenial]

I feel the same but I just sleep and do nothing