My life is fucking dogshit, I'm laying here calculating how long I have left before I'm forced to rope considering my current circumstances, and it's a lot less than I expected.
I'm stuck in a 3rd world shit hole, my father, despite being a pensioner, is broke because he provides support for 3 families, one isn't even his, it's his housekeepers family, but he feels like he owes them for taking care of him.
He won't leave behind any inheritance after his death, this is his fault, and by the looks of his health, he's nearing his death.
That means I'll have no financial support once he dies, and the monkey can't receive survivor benefits since she's in her 40s I think, though, since I'm 18 and still finishing highschool, it might be possible to receive child survivor benefits, but it'll only last a year.
The primate also said she has no intentions of supporting me, and as far as I know, she hasn't saved enough money to even get me through college, the chances my father will even be alive by then to support me are very slim.
So I've come to the conclusion, there's nothing I can do to leave this shit hole, if I don't get through college, I'll be stuck minimum wageslaving until I die, and I'd rather not, this isn't life, this is fucking misery.
Tonight I've made up my mind, I'll rope by the time I turn 19, I can negotiate for 20 if the conditions are favorable, and this is set, there's no backing out, I'd rather be dead than suffer just to suffer even more
I've got around ~300-700 days, I will try to make it count, so when the end comes I'm ready.
I'm stuck in a 3rd world shit hole, my father, despite being a pensioner, is broke because he provides support for 3 families, one isn't even his, it's his housekeepers family, but he feels like he owes them for taking care of him.
He won't leave behind any inheritance after his death, this is his fault, and by the looks of his health, he's nearing his death.
That means I'll have no financial support once he dies, and the monkey can't receive survivor benefits since she's in her 40s I think, though, since I'm 18 and still finishing highschool, it might be possible to receive child survivor benefits, but it'll only last a year.
The primate also said she has no intentions of supporting me, and as far as I know, she hasn't saved enough money to even get me through college, the chances my father will even be alive by then to support me are very slim.
So I've come to the conclusion, there's nothing I can do to leave this shit hole, if I don't get through college, I'll be stuck minimum wageslaving until I die, and I'd rather not, this isn't life, this is fucking misery.
Tonight I've made up my mind, I'll rope by the time I turn 19, I can negotiate for 20 if the conditions are favorable, and this is set, there's no backing out, I'd rather be dead than suffer just to suffer even more
I've got around ~300-700 days, I will try to make it count, so when the end comes I'm ready.
