I just wish my brain and body were normal. Everything feels like a struggle that others don’t even have to think about. I can’t connect with people like they do. My autism makes it hard to communicate, to understand social cues, to just be normal. I try to fit in, but I never do. And on top of that, I can’t escape how ugly I feel. I know people look at me and see everything wrong—my face, my body—like I don’t even deserve to exist in the same space as them. My mental illness only adds to it, making everything feel worse. It’s like I'm trapped in my own mind and my own body, and no matter how hard I try, I’ll never be good enough.
