BallinCat43
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- Joined
- Feb 12, 2025
- Posts
- 202
- Online time
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It's been three weeks since I've watched a live stream.
To be honest, it's been better for me in terms of getting schoolwork done, watching shows/movies I am interested in, not being invested in someone who doesn't give two shits about me, etc.
However, I've mostly just used the free time to LDAR instead. I keep thinking about how much of a disgusting loser I am and have zero motivation to do the things I'm interested in.
I can't bring myself to do anything because it's all pointless. I will never be truly respected as a man, truly loved by a woman. I just hate that I was born.
I'm somehow more suicidal because I can't pretend to have friends now. Twitch at least gave me an outlet to escape from my pathetic life. Now I have to face it for what it is. I go to school, get mogged, come home stewing in anger, and sleep.
What do I do?
To be honest, it's been better for me in terms of getting schoolwork done, watching shows/movies I am interested in, not being invested in someone who doesn't give two shits about me, etc.
However, I've mostly just used the free time to LDAR instead. I keep thinking about how much of a disgusting loser I am and have zero motivation to do the things I'm interested in.
I can't bring myself to do anything because it's all pointless. I will never be truly respected as a man, truly loved by a woman. I just hate that I was born.
I'm somehow more suicidal because I can't pretend to have friends now. Twitch at least gave me an outlet to escape from my pathetic life. Now I have to face it for what it is. I go to school, get mogged, come home stewing in anger, and sleep.
What do I do?





