It’s an uphill battle. Unfortunately there is little to no outside support for people like us, which makes it even harder.
Ultimately, you will reach a breaking point where you make a decision about how you want to move forward with your life—accept defeat and LDAR or end it, or try to get better. “Getting better” is different for everyone, it could be finding meaning in something you’re passionate about, improving your mental health, furthering your career, decentering women, it’s depends on what works for you.
For myself, I rotted for several years and was suicidal through all of it, until I reached a point where I realized if I kept going down that trajectory I would be wind up dead. It took time and patience with myself but I have things that keep me moving forward, like a career that I’m invested in advancing in, hobbies like music and some other things.
I’m not trying to make it sounds like my life is great now or that I’m satisfied with my situation. I still cry almost every time I step out of the shower and see myself in the mirror. I feel lonely and unloved every day. I just found things that keep me motivated, so I can eventually get to a point where I’m happy that I stuck through the suffering.
