I will try to introduce myself and summarize what I mean.
As an incel-manlet of five feet (or 1,52cm), bald and ugly (I look extremely like the protagonist of Powder), I have had little or no experience with women. I will relate my childhood, adolescence and present. As a child I went a lot to my own thing (I guess everyone) and had friends (even girls), let's say I always liked others. I remember that when I was about twelve, I was with a friend and her sister, and I mistreated her (without extremes), even once in private I showed her my penis ... Well, I remember when I was with that friend talking, the sister would come to me, come up to me, hug me (or something like that) and say, "I love you," but I totally ignored her.
Then later, I was with a friend (girl) and invited her to my house to play, eat and things like that. And I remember perfectly that she insinuated herself to me, she even did like a dance like moving her body trying to seduce me. And I was very innocent and I said: what? So what? I think it bothered her and she was leaving. Then I move on to when I was between 15 and 17 years old. I helped a girl I met on facebook (my own age) and she kissed me as a thank you for helping her. I stood still not knowing what to do and she said, "What's wrong with you?" That girl had a boyfriend and fucked others... Anyway I was still in my semi-innocence. Then we move on to the last one I'm working selling things in a street market. And some acquaintances of my parents see each other and talk and so, and the girl who will have about 30 and few looks at me a lot and like I notice an aura of interest or seduction, but I am very serious and introverted (without extremes) and then nothing happens beyond normal. I never saw that couple again after a few times of seeing each other. And now the present, where no woman interests me. Even in another sales stop there is a family that goes the daughter and she will be about 14 or 15 years old, I do not think more, she is beautiful and at first she looked at me a lot (and sometimes she still does) but sometimes her sister went (or whoever) and they both looked at me, and I think not in a positive way. but as if to say "look at that weird and ugly guy haha", of course all that subtly. I no longer have hope for anything, and I am now focused on God, sport, reading and ignoring women (I became mgtow too). I'm past everything (even porn).
Postscript: Sorry for the much text and for a fairly "simple" thread, but apart from the fact that I wanted to vent, because it is my first thread, I must start for something.
As an incel-manlet of five feet (or 1,52cm), bald and ugly (I look extremely like the protagonist of Powder), I have had little or no experience with women. I will relate my childhood, adolescence and present. As a child I went a lot to my own thing (I guess everyone) and had friends (even girls), let's say I always liked others. I remember that when I was about twelve, I was with a friend and her sister, and I mistreated her (without extremes), even once in private I showed her my penis ... Well, I remember when I was with that friend talking, the sister would come to me, come up to me, hug me (or something like that) and say, "I love you," but I totally ignored her.
Then later, I was with a friend (girl) and invited her to my house to play, eat and things like that. And I remember perfectly that she insinuated herself to me, she even did like a dance like moving her body trying to seduce me. And I was very innocent and I said: what? So what? I think it bothered her and she was leaving. Then I move on to when I was between 15 and 17 years old. I helped a girl I met on facebook (my own age) and she kissed me as a thank you for helping her. I stood still not knowing what to do and she said, "What's wrong with you?" That girl had a boyfriend and fucked others... Anyway I was still in my semi-innocence. Then we move on to the last one I'm working selling things in a street market. And some acquaintances of my parents see each other and talk and so, and the girl who will have about 30 and few looks at me a lot and like I notice an aura of interest or seduction, but I am very serious and introverted (without extremes) and then nothing happens beyond normal. I never saw that couple again after a few times of seeing each other. And now the present, where no woman interests me. Even in another sales stop there is a family that goes the daughter and she will be about 14 or 15 years old, I do not think more, she is beautiful and at first she looked at me a lot (and sometimes she still does) but sometimes her sister went (or whoever) and they both looked at me, and I think not in a positive way. but as if to say "look at that weird and ugly guy haha", of course all that subtly. I no longer have hope for anything, and I am now focused on God, sport, reading and ignoring women (I became mgtow too). I'm past everything (even porn).
Postscript: Sorry for the much text and for a fairly "simple" thread, but apart from the fact that I wanted to vent, because it is my first thread, I must start for something.
