Every day i wake up applying to some new jobs and every day no one answers me back, I'm 24 with only a couple of months of work experience and due to irresponible rapid immigration to my country and the fact that i don't meet some kind of DEI standard i am constantly rejected for work. I live with my mother whom cannot afford to live by on her own, her job does not pay for the increasing costs of living, so i constantly have to chip in. For groceries, for bills, for any payment we need so that we can survive, How is this possible?, after all i dont have a job.
I gamble, not the kind of gambling at casino but betting and stock/crypto futures the kinds of "gambling" that you can get good at and i am quite good at it. It's the only reason why me and mom can stay afloat, I'm always pulling money out of my accounts to spend on stuff I literally need survive, I never get the opportunity to spend that money on things I want because I cannot afford to. Because even though for example i could buy a new computer for $1k (half of my total funds) that would mean i would less money to make money, It's easier to make $200 off of $2k (10% increase) then it is to make $200 off of $1k (20% increase).
All of this not taking into account that sometimes I just lose, I'm good but i'm not that good and sometimes I make the wrong calls and i have to face a devastating loss that not only set back my chance at future but also my ability to sustain my current living situation. Sometimes I just remain neutral making no money at all which is not fine because almost every month there is a bill to pay or groceries that I need to buy, Not winning sets me back as well, and losing is absolutely crushing.
There is a popular phrase about gambling, don't gamble with money you cannot afford to lose. But as much i cannot afford to lose that money, i cannot afford to stop gambling, I must win or it's over. I've been applying to jobs for over a year since I lost my last one, I cannot afford to hope that this week or month things will just change and I will get sustainability through the reliable income provided by a job.
One of the worst things this about is that I have been rejected for government hand outs, because I have savings they want me to spend all of it before they will give me any money again, fuck those scumbags, I hate them.
I gamble, not the kind of gambling at casino but betting and stock/crypto futures the kinds of "gambling" that you can get good at and i am quite good at it. It's the only reason why me and mom can stay afloat, I'm always pulling money out of my accounts to spend on stuff I literally need survive, I never get the opportunity to spend that money on things I want because I cannot afford to. Because even though for example i could buy a new computer for $1k (half of my total funds) that would mean i would less money to make money, It's easier to make $200 off of $2k (10% increase) then it is to make $200 off of $1k (20% increase).
All of this not taking into account that sometimes I just lose, I'm good but i'm not that good and sometimes I make the wrong calls and i have to face a devastating loss that not only set back my chance at future but also my ability to sustain my current living situation. Sometimes I just remain neutral making no money at all which is not fine because almost every month there is a bill to pay or groceries that I need to buy, Not winning sets me back as well, and losing is absolutely crushing.
There is a popular phrase about gambling, don't gamble with money you cannot afford to lose. But as much i cannot afford to lose that money, i cannot afford to stop gambling, I must win or it's over. I've been applying to jobs for over a year since I lost my last one, I cannot afford to hope that this week or month things will just change and I will get sustainability through the reliable income provided by a job.
One of the worst things this about is that I have been rejected for government hand outs, because I have savings they want me to spend all of it before they will give me any money again, fuck those scumbags, I hate them.
