Venting I Yearn for the adolescent life I never had

[Misogynist Vegeta]

My life was fine until I became a teenager, my autistic tendencies that didn't really bother others suddenly became a problem and I became a social outcast. I was the weird kid that people liked to make up rumors about, I was the class clown who people laughed at but never wanted to befriend. I tried everything to make friends but it never happened, I never got to experience the teenage life as I spent most of my time in my own room uninvited to other people's events and parties despite wanting to go. An extravert forced to be an introvert, I would go on walks hoping to be recognized by someone or to find something to get into but my endeavors were ultimately useless.

I missed out on teenage love, the purest form of life that anybody can experience. Everytime I watch something that has teenage love in it I feel a deep sorrow for what I had missed. It's not only love that I missed out on but having a real friend group to get up to mischief with, to play games together and do whatever random things we wanted to together.

It's not like you can go back be a kid anymore, I'm an adult with responsibilities poisoned by the cruelty of the real world. My imagination is dulled and my soul is weakened. Even if I were to find love now It just wouldn't be the same, I'm tainted by the love I never had.

 

[Animecel2D]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

 

[Misogynist Vegeta]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

I remember I would stay up for hours at night making plans of how I would make friends, none of those plans worked.

 

[Onyx]

I remember I would stay up for hours at night making plans of how I would make friends, none of those plans worked.

I did the same thing. Made a plan during one summer before school. When it didn't work I realised something was wrong. It was never about the way I acted or treated people. It was always about my looks.

 

[cathuluelitist]

Same though the anvil hit me even younger.

 

[SewerGoat]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

Same i literally was isolated for 3,5 years straight before Covid.

 

[Giracel]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

 

[undesiredsamsung]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

 

[ANTAGONIST]

I Yearn for the adolescent pussy I never had

 

[Necr0tic]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

same bruh, my entire teenage years basically consisted of rotting on Discord and TT, no real friends, no real outings, no nuffin

 

[Oldcel_Narutofan]

same bruh, my entire teenage years basically consisted of rotting on Discord and TT, no real friends, no real outings, no nuffin

me too. I probably talk to GPT more than actual humans by now

 

[AdolfRizzler]

I Yearn for the adolescent pussy I never had

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

 

[RXblackpill]

I am mentally crippled by lonely teen years

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

It's true. If I woke up a Chad tomorrow, it would be too late, I can't get back the years I missed.
But that's not my main concern now, when it's not even possible to catch up and live a normal adult life, having led a youth like this. I have zero skills, zero life experience, and I can't talk to people.

 

[ihatelife2]

I'm sorry you were a social outcast, same here. Even if we went back we would still be hated for your ugly faces.