I'm autistic and sub5 and generally really awkward, submissive and meek and I get pushed around by people quite easily, and who loves those types of men? Crazy manipulative abusive BPD bitches, and I already know if that opportunity ever someway somehow presented itself to me and some crazy bpd bitch showed interest in me, even if I notice the raging red flags that she is a piece of shit the second we first speak to eachother, I would still absolutely with no doubt in my mind JUMP straight into that shit because I'm so completely socially isolated and lonely and deprived of even just basic human contact, the only human contact i get is hugs from my mum, that's literally it, so of course I would jump straight into it headfirst especially if she is somewhat decent looking and has a decent enough body
I already did jump straight into being "friends" with these psychopathic pieces of shit online who eventually doxxed me and came to my hometown to do "antics" on me which was basically just causing me as much humiliation as possible in my town and they even almost turned my town against me at one point, all because they were "real" with me and seemed to accept and humour my autistic weirdness, I noticed the red flags from the very start especially the main guy, but I still stayed because in my mind I'm autistic and ugly and 80% of people are creeped out and disgusted by my presence, 15% just ignore me and treat me like I don't even exist, and the other 5% pity me so much they speak to me like I'm genuinely severely mentally disabled in that soft fucking voice like they're talking to a 6 year old, so in my mind I should just accept whatever human contact comes my way because it's absolutely the best I can get in my state
So I have concrete proof that I have already accepted actual psychopathic and sadistic pieces of shit into my life who relish in my suffering, all because I'm so hopelessly socially isolated and lonely that I'll accept any person who shows me any kind of attention that isn't immediate disgust or pity, and of course I'll make that same mistake again
I can just imagine how the relationship would be now, she'd probably mentally and even physically abuse and say shit like "oh my god shut the fuck and go sit in your room and read about birds and insects so I can go out tonight and cheat on you", and I already know I wouldn't be to say any comeback and I'd just silently take it because at my core I really am a submissive meek little bitch
I already did jump straight into being "friends" with these psychopathic pieces of shit online who eventually doxxed me and came to my hometown to do "antics" on me which was basically just causing me as much humiliation as possible in my town and they even almost turned my town against me at one point, all because they were "real" with me and seemed to accept and humour my autistic weirdness, I noticed the red flags from the very start especially the main guy, but I still stayed because in my mind I'm autistic and ugly and 80% of people are creeped out and disgusted by my presence, 15% just ignore me and treat me like I don't even exist, and the other 5% pity me so much they speak to me like I'm genuinely severely mentally disabled in that soft fucking voice like they're talking to a 6 year old, so in my mind I should just accept whatever human contact comes my way because it's absolutely the best I can get in my state
So I have concrete proof that I have already accepted actual psychopathic and sadistic pieces of shit into my life who relish in my suffering, all because I'm so hopelessly socially isolated and lonely that I'll accept any person who shows me any kind of attention that isn't immediate disgust or pity, and of course I'll make that same mistake again
I can just imagine how the relationship would be now, she'd probably mentally and even physically abuse and say shit like "oh my god shut the fuck and go sit in your room and read about birds and insects so I can go out tonight and cheat on you", and I already know I wouldn't be to say any comeback and I'd just silently take it because at my core I really am a submissive meek little bitch
