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My life is at a stand still. I have so many problems it's not funny. I work a shit minimum wage job at 38 years old. I smoke cigarettes and support my mom and her husband's alcohol and cigarettes on top of that. That is all expensive. I drive a shitty car, that I bought a year ago,and got my license back and that's the only things I've accomplished. But I dont know how long my shit car will last. And did I mention I hate my job and think its torture? Yes it sucks.
On top of that I'm more concerned with how I'm treated by women and everyone. My teeth are decayed, I'm missing all kinds of teeth including front ones. I have some shitty insurance, but when I call places they dont accept my insurance or tell me they aren't accepting anyone right now. I cant really smile at my job, I know its ugly while everyone else has nice teeth. Even if I got falsies they might look fake as fuck and be a pain in the ass.
I've thought about working out,and trying to get in the best shape of my life,maybe add tatoos. Just to try to get sexy so I can get a girlfriend or atleast better treatment. I've worked out before,and gave up after 3-4 months because it's hard work,and I didnt get treated any better or any real big results. I just let myself get fat during the winter laying around in depression ,eating.
Them are my only ways of trying to looks max,i thought about rogaine too for my receiding hairline that looks like is getting worse but i don't even see it in the stores anymore. I'm starting to see white hairs more and more come in where i had blondish brown hair. I'm still 5'7 also so dont know how much I can looks max and be attractive to any woman out there.
Anyways the point is I'm loaded with problems, I need a better job also in the worst way. And what do I do? I come home and get on the internet and read,and think about my shit treatment. I only think to myself I'll do something productive on my day off,and I dont do it. Because anything I try to do is stressful and irritating. I'd rather be on the internet and try to get some type of dopamine. Or sleep. Anybody like this?
On top of that I'm more concerned with how I'm treated by women and everyone. My teeth are decayed, I'm missing all kinds of teeth including front ones. I have some shitty insurance, but when I call places they dont accept my insurance or tell me they aren't accepting anyone right now. I cant really smile at my job, I know its ugly while everyone else has nice teeth. Even if I got falsies they might look fake as fuck and be a pain in the ass.
I've thought about working out,and trying to get in the best shape of my life,maybe add tatoos. Just to try to get sexy so I can get a girlfriend or atleast better treatment. I've worked out before,and gave up after 3-4 months because it's hard work,and I didnt get treated any better or any real big results. I just let myself get fat during the winter laying around in depression ,eating.
Them are my only ways of trying to looks max,i thought about rogaine too for my receiding hairline that looks like is getting worse but i don't even see it in the stores anymore. I'm starting to see white hairs more and more come in where i had blondish brown hair. I'm still 5'7 also so dont know how much I can looks max and be attractive to any woman out there.
Anyways the point is I'm loaded with problems, I need a better job also in the worst way. And what do I do? I come home and get on the internet and read,and think about my shit treatment. I only think to myself I'll do something productive on my day off,and I dont do it. Because anything I try to do is stressful and irritating. I'd rather be on the internet and try to get some type of dopamine. Or sleep. Anybody like this?
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