I wish I'd reach a state of mind where I appreciated the small things, smiled at my misfortunes in an enlightened way, laughed at the universe's ways.

[Deleted member 7448]

I even read books, browsed forums with all kinds of ideas, spiritual, religious and whatnot. Can't get myself to actually believe and get into a state of mind where I embrace these ideas. For some reason my brain always resets to its usual cynical and skeptical, nihilist ways.

I need to make peace with the world. I need to start coping in a much better way because as time passes, things will get worse and worse. My parents will die, my body will deteriorate and all the bad lifestyle choices will take their toll. The regrets will pile up, the chances of ever being with a young woman will somehow seem even lower than the current 0% chance. I hope I won't regret my avoidant ways and start thinking about how wrong I was to not ever have any friendships and actively avoid people.

Why can't time stand still?

 

[Deleted member 18214]

I want to become the perfect being

 

[Alfeo]

cynical and skeptical, nihilist ways

maybe bc it makes more sense?

 

[TINMAN]

That's basically what cucks are trying to do when they bluepill themselves. Obviously it doesn't work very well.

 

[azakhan]

I doubt it's even possible. You can't unlearn or forget about certain things. And you can't accept them unless you get a mental lobotomy.

Best shot is probably to find a hobby and escapism. If I'll ever seriously consider suicide I will just turn to heroin and at least expierence some pleasure before necking myself.

 

[Gymcelled]

The answer is Maslow's hierarchy of needs. The need for intimacy and sex comes before self actualization, spiritualism, self esteem etc.

All of this stuff you're into is meaningless if those more primal needs are not being fulfilled.

 

[LastGerman]

I want to become the perfect being

This is legit.