Venting I wish I was seen as a human being

[Mistake]

I've just been thinking about ways in which I've been humiliated through out my life and in recent times. I never had a chance with how I look. Throughout my whole life, people have excluded me, messed with me, laughed at me, humiliated me because of how I look.

I remember when I was walking to my class, and some young foid coming out of a room saw me and said "Jesus christ" in a freaked out voice, and my face hasn't changed since then. Like nah man, I can't keep going. I'm not built to withstand this shit. Could you imagine going to school, or to the gym, or to the shopping mall and people just laugh when they walk past you? Could you imagine literally scaring people with your face? I'm literally unlovable, there is no hope. Most of these people who disparage me have friends, partners, and sex, so it's not about personality, but about looks IT.

And people don't even see me as one of them, they see me as some sort of comic relief. They try to mess with me or humiliate me. I'm basically confined to rotting in my room because when I do leave it (which is rarely), I still get stared at and laughed at. If people are nice to me, it is only out of pity. Even my mother, I can hear it in her voice. She talks to me like I'm a child with down syndrome. My 10 year old cousin called me, she was with her friend so I hid my face (she already saw me before and showed me the middle finger). They tried to humiliate me by getting me to say weird stuff out loud (they were outside, other people could have heard) and I heard her saying something about me but I didn't hear it clearly. They were probably talking shit about me. It's starting, isn't it?

@TheGrayWolf @universallyabhorres

 

[unborndegenerate]

yea man it's hell alot brutal when younger ones start making fun of you

 

[Mistake]

yea man it's hell alot brutal when younger ones start making fun of you

yep

 

[Stupid Clown]

People aren't good. There is no good or evil. People are mindless animals.

 

[Lazyandtalentless]

Brutal

 

[Mistake]

People aren't good. There is no good or evil. People are mindless animals.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

That's sad another proof that looks matter in all the wrong ways.

I understand you, man. Human nature isn't good.

 

[universallyabhorres]

I've just been thinking about ways in which I've been humiliated through out my life and in recent times. I never had a chance with how I look. Throughout my whole life, people have excluded me, messed with me, laughed at me, humiliated me because of how I look.

I remember when I was walking to my class, and some young foid coming out of a room saw me and said "Jesus christ" in a freaked out voice, and my face hasn't changed since then. Like nah man, I can't keep going. I'm not built to withstand this shit. Could you imagine going to school, or to the gym, or to the shopping mall and people just laugh when they walk past you? Could you imagine literally scaring people with your face? I'm literally unlovable, there is no hope. Most of these people who disparage me have friends, partners, and sex, so it's not about personality, but about looks IT.

And people don't even see me as one of them, they see me as some sort of comic relief. They try to mess with me or humiliate me. I'm basically confined to rotting in my room because when I do leave it (which is rarely), I still get stared at and laughed at. If people are nice to me, it is only out of pity. Even my mother, I can hear it in her voice. She talks to me like I'm a child with down syndrome. My 10 year old cousin called me, she was with her friend so I hid my face (she already saw me before and showed me the middle finger). They tried to humiliate me by getting me to say weird stuff out loud (they were outside, other people could have heard) and I heard her saying something about me but I didn't hear it clearly. They were probably talking shit about me. It's starting, isn't it?

@TheGrayWolf @universallyabhorres

I'm sorry all us truecels experience this, it's very brutal. Don't give up hope so soon? Have you considered surgery? What exactly are your facial issues?

 

[Razielcel]

People aren't good. There is no good or evil. People are mindless animals.

I still call life 'evil' because of the suffering we inflict on each other. Just the existence of needs and the fact that we can feel pleasure eating meat for example makes me call it that. It all boils down to chasing it no matter the cost. Nature is ruthless.

 

[Mistake]

I'm sorry all us truecels experience this, it's very brutal. Don't give up hope so soon? Have you considered surgery? What exactly are your facial issues?

Thank you and yeah, I've done some research on cosmetic surgery. It is a long list, but my facial flaws include:

-low bone mass (i have a baby face, not a young looking pretty face because I have a shit base. I can't see or feel my brow ridge, I have bad under eyes, etc, it's like I didn't hit puberty. I am boneless and have buccal fat, so when the light shines on my face I look even worse. I basically look like my bones did not develop at all.

-narrow, recessed chin and jaw.

-narrow, thick lips with a weird, dark curve on each side when I smile. My closed lip smiles look creepy and forced.

- I have weird looking square teeth, a bit chipped with gaps between them, possibly caused by tooth extractions when I was a kid.

-Big forehead, my hairline isn't receeding as far as I know, my hairline is just naturally high. My hair gets destroyed in the wind which exposes this and my poor facial structure.

-T40 eye colour which is pretty much T50.

-upper eyelid exposure, narrow set eyes but it's more about my bone structure and lack of bone mass, so I don't look masculine at all.

-my nose is vertically short and my nostrils are big and flared, which makes my philtrum look long.

Surgery can't fix all of my problems and at best, I'd be a 5.0/10 after spending €60000, I've even confirmed this with an app called "Hypic" where you can photoshop your facial features. It is very expensive and it would take me years to get them all.