- Nov 7, 2017
- 155d 14h 21m
I don't want to think about anything. I wish I could induce a coma.
It is extra bad right now. I don't know how some oldcels in here go for years barely talking to anyone and dont kill themselves.Salutextm said:Damn indari. I think you're the most depressed person here
Indari said:It is extra bad right now. I don't know how some oldcels in here go for years barely talking to anyone and dont kill themselves.
Tempus Edax Rerum said:I haven't seen your picture, but I don't think you could possibly be worse looking than I am..( I am KHHV 27)
Only the strong survive, a lot of people just kill themselves early on, this is why the suicide rate is so high among teens or people in their early twenties.
In a way you get used to anything(you adapt). In time you stop feeling everything altogether, whatever little flame of hope or life you still have in you in your early twenties it will be gone for the most part by your late twenties, and not long after that the flame will be extinguished altogether.
Like for me, I don't laugh anymore, I don't find anything to be funny, I don't feel sad or happy( I remember as kid I use to watch the "simpsons" or "married with children" and laught my ass off to the point where I could no longer breathe ). I am in a constant state of "heaviness" or "depression", this state doesn't fluctuate very much, it justs pretty much stays at the very bottom point of the emotional spectrum. I have to take nootropic cocktails just to feel anything, just to have energy, clarity of mind. My body has adopted a state of hardiness you could say, a layer of thick protective "skin" for my emotions. If I were to feel anything, I would be constantly suffering, now instead of suffering, I'm just constantly in a low energy state, I don't know how else to describe it... I don't get high spikes of energy that would translate into spikes of emotions.
The best advice is to completely forget about women and to focus on something else. Sciences (math, physics, chemistry, philosophy) is your best bet. If you focus your energy really deeply into a hobby, and if you minimize your contact with the outside world(and namely to any contanct/exposure to women), your existence will become more bearable.
Eat a cheezecake, your brain should put reward you with elevated emotions. Do some pushups...once you get blood circulation going, you feel better.
But other than that, you just have to endure it. Life is given to us not to be enjoyed, but to be endured, to be got over.
Bri8564 said:Idk what his case is but for me it's not just about women. People usually bully and harass me and treat me like shit in public, it makes leaving my room unbearable
Tempus Edax Rerum said:Very true, women is just the tip of the iceberg for me as well, people have walked all over me all of my life, due to the fact that I was smaller, and I have bad eye area... you are instantly put into the very bottom position on the social ladder if you are short/small frame. Everything that you do is met with so much resistance, aversion and disdain. Even if you overcome all of the obstacles and climb to the top;rather not the top, but equal(and default starting position) ground with everyone else, you are still viewed as someone who climbed out of the gutter, out of the sewers of inferior genetics, you will always be viewed as a second-class citizen that belongs in the sewage of society.
Human actions are governed by self-interest and fear, everyone is only pursuing their own goals, you should never trust anyone, the sooner you learn this and accept it, the less suffering you have to endure.
Yeah, I only leave my apt once a week to do grocery shopping for the week, rest of the week I'm stuck in my apt.