Serious I wish i can wipe out all memories of highschool and my early 20s and it will just be static...

[Ghost]

My formative years on this earth suck the big one. I don't wanna have any memories of them!

I want the memories from age 8 - 27 just wiped clean.

Memories of abusive evil parents, bullied in school and constantly having to fight... And constantly being broke... On top of being incel just be wiped out from my brain!

If I had nice parents and at least some friends in school being incel won't be so bad.

I'd probably have higher chances to ascend or at least have a meaningful decent social life even if i dont ascend, if I don't have this numb social awkwardness built up because my formative years I was constantly in fight or flight mode.

I wish that it will all be like blank static on a TV screen whenever I try to recall my formative years of life!

 

[BlkPillPres]

My formative years on this earth suck the big one.

I often get detailed flash backs of various scenarios when I was blue pilled and I cringe uncontrollably, when I'm alone and it gets really bad I look like a complete mad man, because I'm continuously tapping my head with my hand saying - "no no no no no, stop stop stop stop", basically begging my brain not to recall the memory.

I'm pretty sure this torment will never end for me unless I get sufficient revenge on society, I need a "win" big enough that it mentally overwrites all the cringe by functioning as a counter balance, whenever the cringe/depressing memories pop into my head I can jsut focus on the revenge I have wrought and everything will be alright.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

I would like to wipe out my middle and high school years. They were the most damaging

 

[AloneOnSpeedDial]

im in the middle of those years currently... idk how to control the damage being done to me rn

 

[Michael15651]

As much as I'd love to begin all over again, I'd be deluded to think I won't undergo the same scenarios that led me here.