Transcended Trucel
Peace & Dharma ; Vishwaguru India!
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I watched Remake of Our Life anime recently and white album 2.
Brutally hit me that not single person I have ever met has depended on me in a way that gives Satisfaction. And ofc I have never been able to depend on anyone in this life but myself. I have had no true valuable and enjoyable friends. Never will have a satisfying relationship. I also work as a code monkey nigger , a boring soul racing and monotonous job. I will never have a job as a creative artist/director/producer like in the anime aforementioned. No friends or co-workers who love art and work together to make wonderful works of art (game,music,movie etc.)
I am living background NPC. Literally. My job is merely dealing with issues fixing them, working on adding stupid feature for stupid trash programs. No creative work, no place to let imagination wander. No true acheivements/memories to take pride in. No one will ever say thank you to me from the bottom of their heart for making them a better person .
There are no experiences/memories of note. No future to look forward to. Nothing magical or special.
Brutally hit me that not single person I have ever met has depended on me in a way that gives Satisfaction. And ofc I have never been able to depend on anyone in this life but myself. I have had no true valuable and enjoyable friends. Never will have a satisfying relationship. I also work as a code monkey nigger , a boring soul racing and monotonous job. I will never have a job as a creative artist/director/producer like in the anime aforementioned. No friends or co-workers who love art and work together to make wonderful works of art (game,music,movie etc.)
I am living background NPC. Literally. My job is merely dealing with issues fixing them, working on adding stupid feature for stupid trash programs. No creative work, no place to let imagination wander. No true acheivements/memories to take pride in. No one will ever say thank you to me from the bottom of their heart for making them a better person .
There are no experiences/memories of note. No future to look forward to. Nothing magical or special.