Genetic Error
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I used to walk though my life far below average height, far below average looks. and through pure ignorance, arrogance, delusion and cope. somehow i had a good social life and was enjoying life from about 15-17. but then i lost everything, everyone ditched me.
im a few years older now, the blackpill found me, as it would at my SMV level.
I went through a few months of cope and denial of statistics. But now ive finally come to accept the statistics, my real rating, height gigadisadvantage etc.. which is a good thing because now i know where i stand so i wont put myself in any situations where i can get mogged or feel rejected anymore. also i know exactly wat i need to do to ascend (will take 5+ years of hard work, includes breaking my legs, wageslaving, maxxing everything, moving country leaving everything i know and learning a new language)
but ive sort of withdrawn from soceity, just wrk a part time online job, dont go out, stopped seeing all family; literally all i do is rot on forums, plan my ascension while not actually working on it and maybe go to the supermarket once per week.
also i used to be able to be around 6ft guys and good looking guys all the time without feeling insecure at all. i was literally fine, if anything i thought i was better than them somehow. (delusion) like i had a god complex and extreme confidence which did get me some places but i did experience a lot of rejection and blackpilling moments
but now im fully blackpilled and in the acceptance stage. any time i go on instagram or look IRL i cant stand the mog, literally everyone mogs me in every aspect of genetics and life and friends and gf. i find it such bullshit that i am gonna have to graft 5+ years to try to fix the appearance of my genetics to slihtly improve my chances but just to still be genetically inferior to most men. while everyone else is born with the perfect or average traits. and even insanely good traits that i will never be able to get even with surgery. i see people who are genetically better than me and i just fucking hate them. i have no onfidence anymore.
honestly blackpill ruined me. i was normal and NT before but now im just a rotter. i just know a girl is never going to be fully happy with me in public if we walk past a 6ft guy or a good looking guy etc... i mentally can not handle the mog.
i even tried telling this shit to my therapist but he blanked me twice and hasnt replied for like a week. even my therapist knows its over for me. really am alone in this world
I used to walk though my life far below average height, far below average looks. and through pure ignorance, arrogance, delusion and cope. somehow i had a good social life and was enjoying life from about 15-17. but then i lost everything, everyone ditched me.
im a few years older now, the blackpill found me, as it would at my SMV level.
I went through a few months of cope and denial of statistics. But now ive finally come to accept the statistics, my real rating, height gigadisadvantage etc.. which is a good thing because now i know where i stand so i wont put myself in any situations where i can get mogged or feel rejected anymore. also i know exactly wat i need to do to ascend (will take 5+ years of hard work, includes breaking my legs, wageslaving, maxxing everything, moving country leaving everything i know and learning a new language)
but ive sort of withdrawn from soceity, just wrk a part time online job, dont go out, stopped seeing all family; literally all i do is rot on forums, plan my ascension while not actually working on it and maybe go to the supermarket once per week.
also i used to be able to be around 6ft guys and good looking guys all the time without feeling insecure at all. i was literally fine, if anything i thought i was better than them somehow. (delusion) like i had a god complex and extreme confidence which did get me some places but i did experience a lot of rejection and blackpilling moments
but now im fully blackpilled and in the acceptance stage. any time i go on instagram or look IRL i cant stand the mog, literally everyone mogs me in every aspect of genetics and life and friends and gf. i find it such bullshit that i am gonna have to graft 5+ years to try to fix the appearance of my genetics to slihtly improve my chances but just to still be genetically inferior to most men. while everyone else is born with the perfect or average traits. and even insanely good traits that i will never be able to get even with surgery. i see people who are genetically better than me and i just fucking hate them. i have no onfidence anymore.
honestly blackpill ruined me. i was normal and NT before but now im just a rotter. i just know a girl is never going to be fully happy with me in public if we walk past a 6ft guy or a good looking guy etc... i mentally can not handle the mog.
i even tried telling this shit to my therapist but he blanked me twice and hasnt replied for like a week. even my therapist knows its over for me. really am alone in this world