I was recently blackpilled 6 months ago, my cycle - denial, coping, acceptance, insanity stage rn

[Genetic Error]

pls read

I used to walk though my life far below average height, far below average looks. and through pure ignorance, arrogance, delusion and cope. somehow i had a good social life and was enjoying life from about 15-17. but then i lost everything, everyone ditched me.

im a few years older now, the blackpill found me, as it would at my SMV level.

I went through a few months of cope and denial of statistics. But now ive finally come to accept the statistics, my real rating, height gigadisadvantage etc.. which is a good thing because now i know where i stand so i wont put myself in any situations where i can get mogged or feel rejected anymore. also i know exactly wat i need to do to ascend (will take 5+ years of hard work, includes breaking my legs, wageslaving, maxxing everything, moving country leaving everything i know and learning a new language)

but ive sort of withdrawn from soceity, just wrk a part time online job, dont go out, stopped seeing all family; literally all i do is rot on forums, plan my ascension while not actually working on it and maybe go to the supermarket once per week.

also i used to be able to be around 6ft guys and good looking guys all the time without feeling insecure at all. i was literally fine, if anything i thought i was better than them somehow. (delusion) like i had a god complex and extreme confidence which did get me some places but i did experience a lot of rejection and blackpilling moments

but now im fully blackpilled and in the acceptance stage. any time i go on instagram or look IRL i cant stand the mog, literally everyone mogs me in every aspect of genetics and life and friends and gf. i find it such bullshit that i am gonna have to graft 5+ years to try to fix the appearance of my genetics to slihtly improve my chances but just to still be genetically inferior to most men. while everyone else is born with the perfect or average traits. and even insanely good traits that i will never be able to get even with surgery. i see people who are genetically better than me and i just fucking hate them. i have no onfidence anymore.

honestly blackpill ruined me. i was normal and NT before but now im just a rotter. i just know a girl is never going to be fully happy with me in public if we walk past a 6ft guy or a good looking guy etc... i mentally can not handle the mog.

i even tried telling this shit to my therapist but he blanked me twice and hasnt replied for like a week. even my therapist knows its over for me. really am alone in this world

 

[Billowel]

what's your stats? i guess once you know what makes people really move(looks,money etc etc),you can feel really insecure. i always knew deep down i was trash,so when i realized the blackpill 100%,i wasn't as amazed as some people.

also don't break your legs.you don't wanna be a cripple at 40.being 6 feet(when 6 feet is already manlet or just average in many places) for a few years to then turn cripple isn't worth it.use boots or something similar.it will give you the same boost.

get a miraculous medal and start reading the holy testament(get some accepted catholic translation from whatever country you were born in or get the didache bible if you are in uk/america/canada).this life isn't worth it without christ.

 

[Genetic Error]

also don't break your legs.you don't wanna be a cripple at 40.being 6 fe

nah im at a serverely shit height that if i dont get LL&move to the shortest country in the world. it will be like i never even began living. I'd rather live till 40 living a good life then become crippled. rather than live for 80 years with good mobility and a non existent social or dating life

 

[MenDokeSey]

what's your stats? i guess once you know what makes people really move(looks,money etc etc),you can feel really insecure. i always knew deep down i was trash,so when i realized the blackpill 100%,i wasn't as amazed as some people.

also don't break your legs.you don't wanna be a cripple at 40.being 6 feet(when 6 feet is already manlet or just average in many places) for a few years to then turn cripple isn't worth it.use boots or something similar.it will give you the same boost.

get a miraculous medal and start reading the holy testament(get some accepted catholic translation from whatever country you were born in or get the didache bible if you are in uk/america/canada).this life isn't worth it without christ.

Why do you always mention Christ in your replies? I used to be about that life, but I realized that believing in God doesn't really change anything about my circumstances on Earth. God only matters when you're dead. And then he judges you for being rude, or not giving a hobo a dollar, or jacking off. The fact that you can exist in a world that doesn't follow God's moral code and doesn't even follow the same God and then suffer through that life wondering about your purpose, all the while being inticed to act upon sinful behavior (porn, drunk, gamble, sex, drugs) to make life feel worth living or less empty because everyone around you does that shit, makes me feel that it's stupid to believe in God.

And tbh my issues were moreso that God would punish sinful people with an eternally burning lake of fire. I don't see the point of it. And the fact that I could have more compassion than God about that issue made me question my beliefs deeply. Anyone who denies eternal punishment is just using Christianity for a cope.

Edit: oh, you're actually Catholic... and that's my point exactly.. you believe that everyone goes to purgatory to be cleaned first, but they all eventually go to Heaven. Big cope, dude. Catholic rips from the Bible and makes people feel like their soul is saved by tithing. This was the entire reason the Protestant Reformation started.

 

[Billowel]

Why do you always mention Christ in your replies? I used to be about that life, but I realized that believing in God doesn't really change anything about my circumstances on Earth. God only matters when you're dead. And then he judges you for being rude, or not giving a hobo a dollar, or jacking off. The fact that you can exist in a world that doesn't follow God's moral code and doesn't even follow the same God and then suffer through that life wondering about your purpose, all the while being inticed to act upon sinful behavior (porn, drunk, gamble, sex, drugs) to make life feel worth living or less empty because everyone around you does that shit, makes me feel that it's stupid to believe in God.

And tbh my issues were moreso that God would punish sinful people with an eternally burning lake of fire. I don't see the point of it. And the fact that I could have more compassion than God about that issue made me question my beliefs deeply. Anyone who denies eternal punishment is just using Christianity for a cope.

i never said that being a christrian is easy. i mean sure the world is geared and oriented towards sin,but that doesn't mean we were made for sin.and sure sins would make our lifes much easier.an abortion makes stacy life of fornication easier.doesn't mean the murder of babies is right. i always mention christ, because if one wants to live for christ,then it's normal that he talks about christ.doesn't mean i know much about our lord.it's just that without him in the picture,my discourse is made absolutely null.if i wanted to preach degeneracy like many do here,that which is from god would have been far away from my discourse.but i don't. i am tempted everyday,and i sometimes want to just rope, so i understand your criticism,but christ was tortured and crucified,saint drogo lead a life of celibacy in a basement due to being incredibly ugly,lazarus the homeless had nothing on earth...the list of unfortunate people on earth is large and even god himself had a shit life here on earth. as long as we reach heaven that's what matters.every injustice will be burned with the flames of hell(even purgatory uses the same flames as those of hell),so it's more about enduring the pain and hoping one will survive this hell.



btw god sends people to hell,not exactly because of their sins but because they reject god eternally(that's why their burning in hell is eternal) when they decided to do their sins.any man can commit an outrageous sin and be saved. saints have murdered and raped before.saint paul murdered before coming to christ. he was still saved because he repented and wanted to do the will of god and died with that wish in his heart.it's not that god rejected them.it's that they rejected god. if you think most people who die on earth will want to be with christ after this life,all you have to do is open up social media and see how these people couldn't care less about those things from above.

 

[MenDokeSey]

i am tempted everyday, and i sometimes want to just rope, so i understand your criticism

Do you believe that suicide deaths will go to Hell?

 

[Billowel]

Do you believe that suicide deaths will go to Hell?

i believe some will end up in hell,now all? doubt it.

 

[MenDokeSey]

i believe some will end up in hell,now all? doubt it.

Would I go to hell? I am very kind person. I'm not mean to people. I believed alot in the rapture and end of days prophecy for 3-4 year, until Jesus didn't come in 2021. Then I quit believing in prophecy and just stopped trying to believe altogether as I felt that alot of my decisions centered around thinking that "I wasn't going to be here" for very long. I believe that Jesus Christ is the Lord, but i also have hired escorts for sex and I masturbate like 3 times a day. I haven't repented either as I feel like it's pointless to do that if I just keep committing it. I am waiting for myself to have a better mindset before doing that. So, would i go to hell based on that?

Sorry for your loss.

 

[El Enemigo]

You're still if you make this long ass threads
Next time add a tldr, you're not that interesting tor eat all that shit

 

[WizardofSoda]

I also can't be around all normies and foids who all have good or near good genetics, while I have shit poor inferior genetics. It just makes me too sad and there is nothing i can do about it, so I prefer to be alone.

Also not only being mogged so badly by ordinary normies, but then seeing all the fun and pleasurable things they get to do because of genetics luck of being normal.

Foidst just seeing them and if I like some foids then knowing I can never date them because of lesser genetics, it just makes me sad. They will always choose guys with good genetics to be around let alone to love.

Darkness, heavy rain are my friends. And in some ways with the internet its not that bad being alone by myself.

 

[Billowel]

Would I go to hell? I am very kind person. I'm not mean to people. I believed alot in the rapture and end of days prophecy for 3-4 year, until Jesus didn't come in 2021. Then I quit believing in prophecy and just stopped trying to believe altogether as I felt that alot of my decisions centered around thinking that "I wasn't going to be here" for very long. I believe that Jesus Christ is the Lord, but i also have hired escorts for sex and I masturbate like 3 times a day. I haven't repented either as I feel like it's pointless to do that if I just keep committing it. I am waiting for myself to have a better mindset before doing that. So, would i go to hell based on that?

Sorry for your loss.

man if not even the apostles or the angels in heaven know of when he will come, then it's pointless to believe he is around the corner because some random dude on the internet said it(heck he could be a living saint and it still wouldn't matter). death is always around the corner,so thinking of how best to live your life(and a good life can only happen by serving christ) and making sure that were you to die today,you would die in a state of grace without any hatred for god is important though.


Our lord has saved many prostitutes,adulterers,fornicators,murderers, and no sin is impossible to repent from(god himself said so), so if you don't trust my word,then you can always believe god himself.

Also, it is true that for some it is very easy to commit a sin(temptation sucks),but it is also true that god gives every man a chance to not sin. god doesn't want any *harm* to come to his creation,and he knows that nothing destroys life like sin,so if you ask him with a contrite heart,he will give everything that is necessary to you. you don't need to sin,if you ask our lord for help.

i know if you come to him with the intention of being with him,then i am sure his merciful heart will hear your plea. I assume you are protestant by your huge interest in end of day prophecies,but please get a miraculous medal and also a rosary(it's only 20 mins of prayer).

also there is no better mindset. you won't wake up one day magically not liking sin anymore.i mean god sometimes does give graces to people to pull him to him(in fact, the fact that you want to be with god,is him helping,as he is willingly giving you a good that is oriented towards being with him) which might help them feel like they will never suffer from the same sin again(a temporary help),but mans love for sin doesn't magically vanish. start trying to be with our lord. everyone who is a saint had to want to be with our lord and follow him even if their challenges were great(sometimes resulting in torture and death).


i won't be here for a week(travelling to attend my grandmothers funeral),so sorry if i don't respond to your messages quicker

 

[erenyeager]

Why do you always mention Christ in your replies? I used to be about that life, but I realized that believing in God doesn't really change anything about my circumstances on Earth. God only matters when you're dead. And then he judges you for being rude, or not giving a hobo a dollar, or jacking off. The fact that you can exist in a world that doesn't follow God's moral code and doesn't even follow the same God and then suffer through that life wondering about your purpose, all the while being inticed to act upon sinful behavior (porn, drunk, gamble, sex, drugs) to make life feel worth living or less empty because everyone around you does that shit, makes me feel that it's stupid to believe in God.

And tbh my issues were moreso that God would punish sinful people with an eternally burning lake of fire. I don't see the point of it. And the fact that I could have more compassion than God about that issue made me question my beliefs deeply. Anyone who denies eternal punishment is just using Christianity for a cope.

Edit: oh, you're actually Catholic... and that's my point exactly.. you believe that everyone goes to purgatory to be cleaned first, but they all eventually go to Heaven. Big cope, dude. Catholic rips from the Bible and makes people feel like their soul is saved by tithing. This was the entire reason the Protestant Reformation started.

god is apart of the multiverse agenda that wants imperfects like us dead