Venting I want to do something with my life, I am not lazy just too fucked up

[RealSchizo]

I want to do something with my life and earn money, but I am too fucked up mentally to do that. High-inhib and beyond traumatized to even consider getting a job or interact with other humans outside my family.
I am a hard working person, but I cannot even step outside without feeling how much everyone judges me because I barely resemble a human being.
I've always liked doing any kind of work and laziness is not why I rot.
I am way too fucked up to do anything in this life. I think that the only way out is to kill myself.

 

[INVERTER]

I don't get it. What's so hard about at least trying to work somewhere? I've been bullied at jobs before. When I worked in restaurants people locked me out of the restaurant and threw food at me. You just have to ignore retarded normans

 

[Erenincel]

I'm also traumatized, but for me, it makes me suffer much more from inceldom. Internally, I constantly want to act, but my psyche won't let me. Social anxiety with high inhibition is a curse. I know I've experienced it myself more than once, and I don't recommend it to anyone. At least, it's not as severe for me as it is for you. For now, look for solutions; it might even prolong your life. For social anxiety, you need exposure. Slowly overcome your fear by doing things your nervous system allows you to do that activate your fear sufficiently. Maybe it's still there for me, but thanks to overcoming it, it's not as pathological. (The only positive about trying cold approach foids.) High inh can be reduce by benzos and alkohol but this is not a healthy option. I don't know how to deal with the lack of energy.The only thing you can do is keep your mind occupied. It works for a while, although it doesn't relieve emotional pain.

 

[RealSchizo]

I don't get it. What's so hard about at least trying to work somewhere? I've been bullied at jobs before. When I worked in restaurants people locked me out of the restaurant and threw food at me. You just have to ignore retarded normans

gigabrutal but you're right.

 

[INVERTER]

gigabrutal but you're right.

The thing is at high IQ jobs people have to treat you with a certain level a respect even if you're a subhuman. It's only at retarded jobs like restaurants and warehouses where people can act like animals.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I want to do something with my life and earn money, but I am too fucked up mentally to do that. High-inhib and beyond traumatized to even consider getting a job or interact with other humans outside my family.
I am a hard working person, but I cannot even step outside without feeling how much everyone judges me because I barely resemble a human being.
I've always liked doing any kind of work and laziness is not why I rot.
I am way too fucked up to do anything in this life. I think that the only way out is to kill myself.

I feel like I am in a similar position to yours, and I know how horrible it feels. I wish I knew how to escape the mental barriers that prevent me from being somewhat human, but death increasingly appears to be the only choice I will eventually have.

 

[Zaraj11]

Search possibilites to earn money on the internet, I did this while I was in school. You can find all kinds of things, most can be done by anyone, but you have to know that most are paying little even compared to minimum wage, still better than nothing I think

 

[Reddit=Bandwagonism]

I feel like I am in a similar position to yours, and I know how horrible it feels. I wish I knew how to escape the mental barriers that prevent me from being somewhat human, but death increasingly appears to be the only choice I will eventually have.

Don’t say that man. Sounds cliche, but do you have a goal? I feel like having a reason, any reason, to wake up in the morning is crucial for mental health.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Don’t say that man. Sounds cliche, but do you have a goal? I feel like having a reason, any reason, to wake up in the morning is crucial for mental health.

I do have goals in theory, but I am too incompetent socially to bring about any meaningful change.

 

[Reddit=Bandwagonism]

I do have goals in theory, but I am too incompetent socially to bring about any meaningful change.

- So is your issue social anxiety/ social skills? If so, have you tried researching how to improve that aspect?
- what about goals that give you some form of meaning without requiring you to interact with others? Perhaps a fitness goal like running a 5k or benching 225?

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

- So is your issue social anxiety/ social skills? If so, have you tried researching how to improve that aspect?

I have tried to reach out for mental health support, but the psychiatrist and psychologist I talked with did not take me seriously at all.

- what about goals that give you some form of meaning without requiring you to interact with others? Perhaps a fitness goal like running a 5k or benching 225?

I have already achieved most of my fitness goals, though I suppose you can always aim higher. My motivation has decreased over the years, even though I have remained consistent. I also try to read a few books every month.

 

[Reddit=Bandwagonism]

I have tried to reach out for mental health support, but the psychiatrist and psychologist I talked with did not take me seriously at all.


I have already achieved most of my fitness goals, though I suppose you can always aim higher. My motivation has decreased over the years, even though I have remained consistent. I also try to read a few books every month.

- Why did they not take you seriously? Have you tried reaching out to different therapists? Also, consider maybe trying virtual therapy? It might be somewhat of an easier step to try virtual therapy, especially after such bad experiences. - I’m glad you achieved most of your fitness goals, but as you mentioned, you can aim higher. Have benched 225? Trained yourself to be able to perform 10 pull ups? Always think forward. - it’s awesome that you read books every month. What books do you read?

 

[Mutilator]

I don't get it. What's so hard about at least trying to work somewhere? I've been bullied at jobs before. When I worked in restaurants people locked me out of the restaurant and threw food at me. You just have to ignore retarded normans

Not everyone has the same endurance.
I also experienced bullying and disrespect but after years I don't have a patience for this crap.
I became more impulsive with time.

 

[NickelodeonCel]

I don't get it. What's so hard about at least trying to work somewhere? I've been bullied at jobs before. When I worked in restaurants people locked me out of the restaurant and threw food at me. You just have to ignore retarded normans

Some of us suffering from anxiety boyo and other physical or mental disabilities

 

[foidslayer4ever]

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