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*MIGHT BE MY LONGEST THREAD*
I don't think anyone has it worse than me, a guy who actually wishes to go to some shit foster family to get away from my shitty genes.
All to get away from my bad environment. I fear almost everything I do in here, so I don't get yelled at, and I am practically an autist. I have been bullied in school, abused at home, mentally and physically so badly I constantly flinch, even fear going downstairs where my parents are so I don't get hit or yelled at. It's worse now that I dropped out of high school because of all this blackpill shit plummeting my mental health, except my parents don't believe my depression and yell at me all the time (especially "father", except I don't like to refer to him as that). My parents also are going to take my phone so I have no choice but to stare at a wall for 15 hours a day (better than going to school tho, too much anxiety). Currently have headaches 24/7, and am constantly tired, my body is ready to die basically.
Being ugly is bad enough, being retarded and not able to learn much is even worse, having an uninteresting (bad) personality tops the garbage off, AND my anxiety, depression, slight autism makes it a landfill of shit genes. BUT a bad environment means I have to run away from this town or rope.
And then again foster care apparently is hell and you will become a failure too if you go there, even though I'll become a failure in here, and it's also hell in here. I blame my genetics tbh.
Well boys, this is it. Either I have to rope (only reason why I haven't yet cuz I'm scared, if I had a pump shotgun from fortnite i wouldnt be making these threads, would alrdy be thing of the past). Other option is ofc I become a homeless bum, but I'll probably rope if that happens as I have too much anxiety. I honestly don't think many here have it as bad as me, something is definitely wrong with me, I feel like I have a disease that was never yet discovered, cuz I literally am the worst possible combination of everything. Only good thing going for me is.. uh I have full head of hair, but I'm still young and so do 99.9% of other ppl in my age group.
I could've summed this thread up in one word tbh: over
I don't think anyone has it worse than me, a guy who actually wishes to go to some shit foster family to get away from my shitty genes.
All to get away from my bad environment. I fear almost everything I do in here, so I don't get yelled at, and I am practically an autist. I have been bullied in school, abused at home, mentally and physically so badly I constantly flinch, even fear going downstairs where my parents are so I don't get hit or yelled at. It's worse now that I dropped out of high school because of all this blackpill shit plummeting my mental health, except my parents don't believe my depression and yell at me all the time (especially "father", except I don't like to refer to him as that). My parents also are going to take my phone so I have no choice but to stare at a wall for 15 hours a day (better than going to school tho, too much anxiety). Currently have headaches 24/7, and am constantly tired, my body is ready to die basically.
Being ugly is bad enough, being retarded and not able to learn much is even worse, having an uninteresting (bad) personality tops the garbage off, AND my anxiety, depression, slight autism makes it a landfill of shit genes. BUT a bad environment means I have to run away from this town or rope.
And then again foster care apparently is hell and you will become a failure too if you go there, even though I'll become a failure in here, and it's also hell in here. I blame my genetics tbh.
Well boys, this is it. Either I have to rope (only reason why I haven't yet cuz I'm scared, if I had a pump shotgun from fortnite i wouldnt be making these threads, would alrdy be thing of the past). Other option is ofc I become a homeless bum, but I'll probably rope if that happens as I have too much anxiety. I honestly don't think many here have it as bad as me, something is definitely wrong with me, I feel like I have a disease that was never yet discovered, cuz I literally am the worst possible combination of everything. Only good thing going for me is.. uh I have full head of hair, but I'm still young and so do 99.9% of other ppl in my age group.
I could've summed this thread up in one word tbh: over
