Story I visited an escort - now feeling empty inside

[Saigon Depression]

@kampman was her pussy a innie or a outie?

innie

 

[KingOfRome]

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Soyboys are marching one by one hurrah, hurrah.

Soyboys are marching one by one hurrah, hurrah.

 

[Saigon Depression]

Lol, I just had a fap and it was physically more intensive than cumming in her mouth. But it was an even emptier feeling emotionally than the escort tonight.
I have to go on another nofap.

Thanks for all the reactions guys.

 

[_wifebeater_]

Lowinhib mogs me brutally.

 

[Saigon Depression]

Lowinhib mogs me brutally.

I'm very high-inhib naturally. And I think I will stay that way.
But nofap and constant fantasizing got me over the edge.

 

[inceldaygamer_]

I waited until 25. It would have been better at 18. I agree with the OP.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

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Soyboys are marching one by one hurrah, hurrah.

Soyboys are marching one by one hurrah, hurrah.

They all think we're a bunch of fuck bois although we're Incels, the biggest niggas going although we're supposed to be white nationalists & making the non sex giving Stacies want to go ER on the Incels.

Maybe just maybe sweetie they think they're living in the twilight zone. Big yikes.

 

[TaskManagerDust]

I'm sure it would be a lot different if the woman actually loved you, not like I'd know that feeling though.

 

[wide_eyed_optimism_]

Nothing could ever compare to a female having such primal lust for you that she'll do anything for you. Anything to please you.

Starfish sex or escort sex cannot compensate for this.

high iq

 

[muharremabi]

I will never visit an escort, I would rather die a virgin than degrade myself to that level.

You will die a virgin.

 

[Saigon Depression]

I can still feel her smell (perfume, pussy) on me.
Shit, what an unknown feeling.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

I was 28 when I lost my virginity to an escort who than became a pornstar in her own right. I did that after being horrifically mocked on social media & when I confided in the wrong people. I then had my voyage of escortcelling exploration seeing 20 different escorts after her but still went back to her twice more in total thrice.

Tbh. I still feel hollow & empty inside. Nothing accomplished & nothing achieved. Just basically getting physical biological needs met I suppose.

 

[TaiLung]

Escortcel = fakecel, try being denied by escorts constantly and say that.

wtf u mean u get denied by escorts LOL

 

[KingOfRome]

They all think we're a bunch of fuck bois although we're Incels, the biggest niggas going although we're supposed to be white nationalists & making the non sex giving Stacies want to go ER on the Incels.

Maybe just maybe sweetie they think they're living in the twilight zone. Big yikes.

I bet most of them clicked on this thread out of a sadistic urge to see OP whine about how paying for sex hasn't changed his life and he's still unlovable subhuman garbage who'll take his perpetual loneliness to the grave despite technically not being a virgin anymore.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

I bet most of them clicked on this thread out of a sadistic urge to see OP whine about how paying for sex hasn't changed his life and he's still unlovable subhuman garbage who'll take his perpetual loneliness to the grave despite technically not being a virgin anymore.

That or it'll incense them even more hopefully to the point of self combustion.

 

[KingOfRome]

That or it'll incense them even more hopefully to the point of self combustion.

Why would it do that? OP got his false expectations slammed into his face in a way not unlike how a clown would get his face slammed into a whipped cream pie. It's emotional slapstick comedy. What would a normie reading this do if not laugh?

 

[deafcel]

Escortcelling is better than no escortcelling. Costs money though and you have to drive there which is pretty annoying for an autist like me

 

[KingOfRome]

Escortcelling is better than no escortcelling. Costs money though and you have to drive there which is pretty annoying for an autist like me

Not if you live in the United States and aren't a multi-millionaire.

 

[Saigon Depression]

Escortcelling is better than no escortcelling. Costs money though and you have to drive there which is pretty annoying for an autist like me

Interesting, probably the best part of the night was the drive to their place and back. No kidding, it was awesome driving in the sunset (and later in the night) thinking about a lot of these things while listening to Kanye's songs

 

[dragonbro]

Sex with a non-escort is nothing like paid sex. All you got was a simulacra and thus why it wasn't more pleasurable for you.

 

[M12Comic]

She was nice, (she was willing to French kiss me and gave me a raw blowjob, swallowed my cum and never humiliated me, even though I wasn't very good at all) but you know, after 28 years of inceldom I expected a sensation that will forever change my life.

You got fucking blessed, good luck bro

I'm sure it would be a lot different if the woman actually loved you, not like I'd know that feeling though.

 

[Saigon Depression]

I'm feeling better since last night's depression.

My sexual urges are returning.

 

[Hate_my_life]

Nothing could ever compare to a female having such primal lust for you that she'll do anything for you. Anything to please you.

Starfish sex or escort sex cannot compensate for this.

Basically this.

 

[Deleted member 21219]

I'm feeling better since last night's depression.

My sexual urges are returning.

You will visit again sooner than you think. Escorts are a great cope and the first time is always weird when you do it with a complete stranger.

But the emptiness i think comes from realizing that youre paying for something that most people out there are getting naturally. End of the day, its completely transactional. You get to make the same movements, but the emotion is completely missing.

 

[RoastieRipper]

FUCKING HELL that was a fun read! I will definitely be escortmaxxing for my birthday, call that cringe but I just want to get it fucking over with so I can kill myself already.

"How were her boobies" - Goood
NO SHIT!!

 

[Deleted member 250]

You got that feeling because you paid for it, she wouldn’t even acknowledge your existence if you had no money.
Good game fren, it’s over

 

[PPEcel]

I don't know where this idea comes from that sex, itself, is life-changing. Nobody ever told me it was, and nothing I'd heard about it ever indicated to me that it was. Like OP, I lost my virginity to an escort, and it was pretty much exactly what I'd expected. The main reason I did it in the first place was because I didn't want to end up a 30-year-old virgin and be even more of a laughingstock than I already was.

Me too

 

[ThisLifeKillsMe]

Escorts are for middle aged men who lack a young woman or have a dead bedroom. They arent good for virgins. If Im on nofap I always surf for brothels and hookers but since I know my biggest problem is lacking a gf I don't go

 

[PPEcel]

Sigh.

I had the exact same feeling, OP, but I thought it was an issue with the escort. It took me a few months of fucking escorts to realize that I would always feel empty in life no matter what I did.

I still recommend that everyone on this forum visit an escort at least once.

 

[ThisLifeKillsMe]

I thought this would be a magical experience, you know, my first kiss, all the love stories I heard, read, butterly in the stomach bullshit.
Now, it feels good (the second best feeling after sucking titties) but not magical. No bullshit.

Because youre not 16 laying in the grass with yozr cute teen gf





Theres no way back

 

[Emba]

She is just a whore he paid her, they will do that you for enough money.
That’s like being jealous of him cuz he has 500 dollars

Mogs me because 500 dollars!

 

[LastGerman]

Well, I left with the feeling, "Is that it? Is this the source of human life and the basically the primary motivator of everything in this world? It's overhyped"
It feels good physically (but not as good as I expected), but now I feel like.....I don't know. I feel like nothing has changed at all. I mean, I was with a girl, but I don't feel like I've changed at all. The only thing that's not the same compared to 3 hours ago, is that now I'm no longer a virgin, but now suddenly, it doesn't feel like an accomplishment. I just don't care.

It is because of this:

A little bit artificial.

What have you accomplished to deserve an ego?

We do not even deserve an ego... But it is true though. What have I accomplished of being worthy to have an ego in the first place? It is truly over at this point.

 

[Deleted member 21770]

My hand does the same job without feeling like a loser

 

[nazianime]

I could never visit an escort, I would feel like I would loose a piece of myself. It just seems so alien to me, having lived for so long being a virgin. I can say that I have have no plans to join the other side in this world.

 

[Dregster]

We do not even deserve an ego... But it is true though. What have I accomplished of being worthy to have an ego in the first place? It is truly over at this point.

I don't say or ask to just be a dickhead about it.

It's just to me, to have pride and an ego, you would need to have something to be proud about, being good at something or having a skill. Done something few of your peers have accomplished. Have things others struggle to obtain. Have a quality that makes you better than others, even if you are an ugly bastard.

To me, an autistic Neet who's absolutely good at nothing with no ambitions to improve his living condition, has no business having a superiority complex.

 

[LastGerman]

I don't say or ask to just be a dickhead about it.

It's just to me, to have pride and an ego, you would need to have something to be proud about, being good at something or having a skill.

It is true though. This is why it is even harder to comprehend it. In the end I am actually not allowed to have an ego in the first place because I do not deserve it.

To me, an autistic Neet who's absolutely good at nothing with no ambitions to improve his living condition, has no business having a superiority complex.

It is true but in the end he will develope it or something similar to it because he wants to be something special and I guess this is just a natural desire. I also think about it quite often.

 

[Adamhastor]

My ego won't allow it

Ego belongs in your childhood

Now, it feels good (the second best feeling after sucking titties)

Someone's got mommy issues

 

[LastGerman]

It was 90 euros/hour, pretty average for EE standards.

Just imagine she would only do one session every workday. That means, she would only work for an hour and would have a monthly income of 1800 Euro. While I, at warehouse logistics doing 2 shifts at the same day, working over 8 hours a day, had an income around 1440 Euro. I cannot comprehend this.

That’s like being jealous of him cuz he has 500 dollars

I am jealous...

Costs money though and you have to drive there which is pretty annoying for an autist like me

Brutal driver licence pill once again.

probably the best part of the night was the drive to their place and back. No kidding, it was awesome driving in the sunset (and later in the night) thinking about a lot of these things while listening to Kanye's songs

Driver licence moggs me so brutally and yet people tell me that this is all bullshit. I wish I could drive into the sunset...

Mogs me because 500 dollars!

Moggs me as well.

 

[AlwaysLawRoute]

Next step is robo-waifus.We must trascend the flesh.

 

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Soyboys are marching one by one hurrah, hurrah.

Soyboys are marching one by one hurrah, hurrah.

Soyboys are marching one by one, the little one stops to drink Chad’s cum.

 

[Total Imbecile]

I paid for one hour, but the whole thing lasted for 30 minutes. Still, I didn't mind.

Biggest ripoff ever along with the you only get to come once rule, they purposefully make their sessions at least 1 hour so they can charge more while knowing full well that you wont utilize all that time

 

[Joker]

You should have done it at age 18. As other posters are saying, it's just a physical act. It can thus satisfy physical urges and the need for skin contact, but what really makes inceldom hell is the lack of emotional validation.

I'm sure it would be a lot different if the woman actually loved you, not like I'd know that feeling though.

 

[Orkcel]

I think there is a big difference between sex and love.
You experienced raw sex which is just a side effect of love.

 

[suislayer]

You feel empty because you knew from the start that it was a hedonistic transaction. Sex with a hooker more or less amounts to a more visceral porno experience. You meet up somewhere unfamiliar, fuck her, and then leave with no changes in your life. They're an exciting cope.

The deeper feelings of fulfillment that come from being in a real relationship are tied to your biological desire to reproduce. Having a wife/gf means that you'll inevitably have children and fulfill your biological purpose. Hookers don't produce the same effect.

 

[FukFeminism]

It has nothing to do with sex, it’s about the relationships and consistent intimacy/sex you are denied unlike everyone else.

 

[Saigon Depression]

Biggest ripoff ever along with the you only get to come once rule, they purposefully make their sessions at least 1 hour so they can charge more while knowing full well that you wont utilize all that time

Next time I will only ask for 30 minutes (which was an option), but I think I wouldn't have been able to cum again anyway.

 

[Deleted member 60]

Low IQ. What did you expect?

You got that feeling because you paid for it, she wouldn’t even acknowledge your existence if you had no money.
Good game fren, it’s over

And the worst part: he's telling other guys to follow in his footsteps.
"I felt like committing suicide after seeing an escort, but you guys should see an escort"
JFL

 

[Saigon Depression]

Low IQ. What did you expect?

And the worst part: he's telling other guys to follow in his footsteps.
"I felt like committing suicide after seeing an escort, but you guys should see an escort"
JFL

I didn't say that. I said explicitly that I'm not suicidal, just empty.

 

[Deleted member 60]

I didn't say that. I said explicitly that I'm not suicidal, just empty.

my bad, misread. I guess it makes sense if you're 29, but most guys here are younger. It should be used as a last resort IMO

 

[Reize]

Well, I left with the feeling, "Is that it? Is this the source of human life and the basically the primary motivator of everything in this world? It's overhyped"

There you got it wrong OP
You missed something: The fullfillment of knowing that it's consensual and not paid, earned and not bought.
That's why Escortceling will never fill the void