bigantennaemay1
Aspie social drifter without purpose or home
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Or maybe it would be more accurate to say that I used to have hope that I would one day enjoy sobriety, once I had a girlfriend. I think you can guess how I feel about that now.
I didn't start drinking until I was 23, and didn't start getting high until I was about 29. And in both cases, I only started as a cope to deal with my inceldom-induced depression. I wouldn't be drinking or getting high if I had been able (allowed to) meet the important social and sexual milestones in any human life. Now, I hate sobriety. I hate being sober, because everything is just a constant reminder of how lonely I really am.
You know what's really funny? I mentioned in a post in ID how a girl led me on once, about 7.5 years ago, for about a week's span of time. During that week, I tried quitting drinking, and I was initially successful. But then, I learned she was just looking for an orbiter, and I sank right back in to drinking again. What a world we live in, huh? What a world we live in.
I didn't start drinking until I was 23, and didn't start getting high until I was about 29. And in both cases, I only started as a cope to deal with my inceldom-induced depression. I wouldn't be drinking or getting high if I had been able (allowed to) meet the important social and sexual milestones in any human life. Now, I hate sobriety. I hate being sober, because everything is just a constant reminder of how lonely I really am.
You know what's really funny? I mentioned in a post in ID how a girl led me on once, about 7.5 years ago, for about a week's span of time. During that week, I tried quitting drinking, and I was initially successful. But then, I learned she was just looking for an orbiter, and I sank right back in to drinking again. What a world we live in, huh? What a world we live in.