SuicideFuel I used to enjoy sobriety

[bigantennaemay1]

Or maybe it would be more accurate to say that I used to have hope that I would one day enjoy sobriety, once I had a girlfriend. I think you can guess how I feel about that now.

I didn't start drinking until I was 23, and didn't start getting high until I was about 29. And in both cases, I only started as a cope to deal with my inceldom-induced depression. I wouldn't be drinking or getting high if I had been able (allowed to) meet the important social and sexual milestones in any human life. Now, I hate sobriety. I hate being sober, because everything is just a constant reminder of how lonely I really am.

You know what's really funny? I mentioned in a post in ID how a girl led me on once, about 7.5 years ago, for about a week's span of time. During that week, I tried quitting drinking, and I was initially successful. But then, I learned she was just looking for an orbiter, and I sank right back in to drinking again. What a world we live in, huh? What a world we live in.

 

[Caesercel]

I'm too much of a contrarian to ever smoke weed or get high.

 

[bigantennaemay1]

I'm too much of a contrarian to ever smoke weed or get high.

I used to be that way, but caved when I couldn't take it anymore.

I haven't had a sober day in over 6 years lol

Having to face my reality on lonely evenings is far too brutal for me, I'd rather just drink to forget myself

When weed becomes legal here next year I'll switch back to smoking

Shit sucks, man. I'd like to believe that we'll all escape this hell someday, but that would be pure delusion. We shouldn't be doomed to this fate.