I found out that when my mother was pregnant, she and my father lived in poverty. He didn't have a job, she was the only one working, and he could spend all the money on alcohol, and he also caused her regular stress. And of course hunger. Doctors told her that she had a "threat of miscarriage" according to medical parameters.
I had a conversation with a distant relative, thanks to him I found out that my mother after she gave birth to me, that she temporarily worked as a prostitute in the village in order to survive. His wife tried to dissuade my mother from this bad occupation, but her efforts led to nothing. It is a mystery to me why my father did not divorce my mother, in that case. Or did he still not find out after all these years? I will be honest, but my life was as if cursed even before I was born. The more details and facts I learn, the more logical understanding of the whole situation of my life as such, from my childhood to adulthood, develops. Logic and facts…
I had a conversation with a distant relative, thanks to him I found out that my mother after she gave birth to me, that she temporarily worked as a prostitute in the village in order to survive. His wife tried to dissuade my mother from this bad occupation, but her efforts led to nothing. It is a mystery to me why my father did not divorce my mother, in that case. Or did he still not find out after all these years? I will be honest, but my life was as if cursed even before I was born. The more details and facts I learn, the more logical understanding of the whole situation of my life as such, from my childhood to adulthood, develops. Logic and facts…
