Venting I should have at least pretended to be normal.

[JustAnotherCynic]

I used to be a rather academically successful kid in school. I never saw school as a place to socialize, I only saw it as a place to learn, so I never developed any sort of relationship. And by the time when I noticed that I was socially retarded, it was too late and I was essentially treated as a lolcow. So I didn't approach people because I don't like being made fun of. And so they made fun of me more because I got more and more socially retarded.

Shockingly, a mistake made by a 5-year-old me has essentially ruined my life. I'm in college now, I am slightly better off than average, but still can't talk to a man, let alone a woman. Hell, I can barely talk to strangers in the internet.

In the puzzle of life, I am a circle. I don't fit anywhere.

I don't know what to do, I can just keep studying and luckily land a job, but then? I'm not going to have a wife and kids, I'm not going to have friends to spend my free time with, I'm not going to be happy.

I don't like people, yet I don't want to be alone. I'm but a walking paradox. I only live because I'm afraid of death.

 

[SandNiggerKANG]

In the puzzle of life, I am a circle. I don't fit anywhere

Brutal

 

[SandNiggerKANG]

So I didn't approach people because I don't like being made fun of. And so they made fun of me more because I got more and more socially retarded.

The hellish negative feedback loop. The blessed keep getting blessed and the cursed keep getting cursed

 

[aitcel]

I can't even look people in the eye

 

[Fluoxymesterone]

I can't even look people in the eye

It was the same for me but now i stare at them until they look away it feels good

 

[Fraud Mortal]

Pretending to be normal is easier said than done (unless you happen to be a professional actor). I tired it for a few months but somehow, ppl could always tell that I'm an outsider. It's like they have a spidey sense for incels!