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I am currently high and walking in a park alone at midnight in my suburban neighborhood while typing this. Typical incel activities
Anyway, something I think many of you guys would be able to relate to is overthinking everything. I, like many of you, am an autismcel who can't socialize with NTs for the life of me. I mean, I can, but only on a surface level. I can't seem to form a truly deep connection with anyone.
Something I noticed about myself is that I am incredibly high inhib and struggle to actually do anything because I am hyper self aware and am constantly thinking about how my actions might be perceived by others. I've noticed that normies, on the other hand, don't get in their own way. They are naturally confident in themselves and thus don't worry about the consequences of their actions so much. They aren't worried about what other people think, and this makes it easier to develop a personality. They are "secure" in who they are and aren't afraid to show it
Many of us don't have this sense of self security. We spent our childhoods being ridiculed and teased by others because our behaviors aren't perceived as "normal" to them. So, as we got older, we learned to suppress our thoughts and be careful with what we say and do around others.
This is the case atleast for me. I can't really express myself the way I actually want to. Like, I think I do have a personality. I have interests and hobbies ; but I never feel comfortable truly being myself because I'm afraid of what other people will think of me. I wish I could have the confidence to be proud of who I am and share the real me with others, but I don't have that confidence because it was taken away from me by all the people who have put me down in life. Why should I be confident in who I am if nobody else gives a shit about me?
Anyway, something I think many of you guys would be able to relate to is overthinking everything. I, like many of you, am an autismcel who can't socialize with NTs for the life of me. I mean, I can, but only on a surface level. I can't seem to form a truly deep connection with anyone.
Something I noticed about myself is that I am incredibly high inhib and struggle to actually do anything because I am hyper self aware and am constantly thinking about how my actions might be perceived by others. I've noticed that normies, on the other hand, don't get in their own way. They are naturally confident in themselves and thus don't worry about the consequences of their actions so much. They aren't worried about what other people think, and this makes it easier to develop a personality. They are "secure" in who they are and aren't afraid to show it
Many of us don't have this sense of self security. We spent our childhoods being ridiculed and teased by others because our behaviors aren't perceived as "normal" to them. So, as we got older, we learned to suppress our thoughts and be careful with what we say and do around others.
This is the case atleast for me. I can't really express myself the way I actually want to. Like, I think I do have a personality. I have interests and hobbies ; but I never feel comfortable truly being myself because I'm afraid of what other people will think of me. I wish I could have the confidence to be proud of who I am and share the real me with others, but I don't have that confidence because it was taken away from me by all the people who have put me down in life. Why should I be confident in who I am if nobody else gives a shit about me?
